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The [Girl]
Name: Nicole
Alias: Nikki.. and many many others.
Age: 20
Height: 5'6.5
Hair Color: Depends on my weave.. :D but black and burgandy.
Eye Color: Dark Brown
Zodiac: Aries
Nationality: Afro-Caribbean American

The [Facts]
Major: Media Art and Design
Music: Soca, Reggae, Rap, R&B, Electronic, J-music ..Anything that sounds good.
Hobbies: Writing *scoffs at self*, drawing, music, video gaming, anime

Favourite [Anime]
Fruits Basket
Pretear
Gravitation
Yami no Matsuei
Full Metal Panic
Gundam Wing
Witch Hunter Robin
Samurai Deeper Kyo
E's
FLCL

Favourite [Manga]
Yami no Matsuei
Gravitation
E's
FLCL
ANY works by Chi-ran

Favourite [Songs]
Virtious Woman - Warrior King
One Life - The Pillows
Spicy Snapper - Ian Pooley
LEMONed I scream - Hide
Ethel - Super Blue
Stay Away - La~Arc~En~Ciel
POP is DEAD - Miyavi
Blind Game Again - Kotani Kinya
4:00 am - Luna Sea
Voiceless Screaming - X Japan


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[Saturday, September 20, 2003|09:29 p.m.] [Guileless Desire]george and co. ^_^

Font sites for PURA NA!

http://www.fenotype.com/font/fontsite.htm
http://dafont.com/en/
http://www.fonts.com/
http://fonts.type4.com/
http://homepage1.nifty.com/tanpopolion/stuff/kakuji.htm
*made some brushed out of them before*
http://www.dobi.nu/toxic/toxic.htm
http://www.misprintedtype.com/
^_^ enjoy them
m,ost of thos elinks are of fof dafont anyhow.. so yeah..
a good source!

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[Saturday, September 20, 2003|08:05 p.m.][Guileless Desire]me.. munching

JELLY IN MAH BELLY!
yeah man.. got some jelly belly beans
OISHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
^_^
and i got my color film developed at rite aide
got my zip disks at costco too
8 for 40 bucks!
good deal!
:p
i ned to call janine and tell he rto NOT buyt hem for me.. ^^;;;;
so yeah.. chilled with my dad this evening
was talking to this guy on xanga before i left.
and he's kinda cute.
*waves at him*
and NO i was NOT watching anime..
i'm just too lazy to change the message
^_^;;;;;;;;;;;;;; heh heh
anyhow. that's about it really
riceo said that i ned to look at digi cams over 200 at least to get good quality
poot.
i'm poor damnit!
so yeah.. ADN i gotta send out a box of j-beans to the fanbook project.
AND i gotta pay for my photo book and mag
sux being poor.

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[Saturday, September 20, 2003|01:07 p.m.][Guileless Desire]drain away -dir en grey

-_-
i'm tired.
not EXHAUSTED.. like yesterday..
but more.. I'm behind on reading Dreams
Yuki's gonna kill me.
;p
and i'm behind on G.U.M.S too
rynn.. *whimper*
WHERE ARE YOU WOMAN!!
YOU'RE NEVER ON!
;P
found my cuff!
yay! i foundit under my negatives binder
got rid of some junk i had..
made a makeup lsit so i know what to buy
i still have a mound of clothes to fold up on my bed.
my dad bunred his foot.. by taking the ham out of the oven..B the water fell on his foot
what a dumb ass.
lol
i'm a nice kid aint i?
but seriously.. common sense would tell you to NOT open a hot oven and try to nick a piece of ham!
-_-
so he went to hoptital and they cut it, drained it and put soem ointment on it.
so he's not doing anywork at the house
and he's sleeping righ now
my mom is up though. ^_^
complaining abouthe laundry and the dishesB i wish we had a dishwasher.
-_-
anyhoo.. youngin was beinghis charming dorky self.
like that's new? ;p
i didn't hang with patrick and ben last night
i didn't feel like it actually
and this cute.. but.. really "fluffy" *as my mom calls them" flip(?) girl was talking tot hem. she knew ben for mad long
but goddamnit! she was so.. er... AIRHEADED!
-_- i eamn really!
you wanna talk.. got ot he END of the counter and talk. notwhere the customers need to order
and shit. don't stand there and KEEP talkign while the manager comes down to do some shit for us?
dan is coola nd all..b ut ithinkhe was a lil pissed
than again.. dan always looks pissed
tee hee hee
dan is mad cool though to tell ya the truth
B and yeah.. don't try to "CONVINCE" me to hang outBR<>? applebee's food tastes liek shit!
and Fusion was dead last week!
and i'm fuckin TRIED!
lemme go home and sleep!
and i had a very nice sleep too.

nyan!
Kara-da!
*coughdoubtsshereadsmyblogtoocough*
what script did you use to password your blog?
i like the idea alot!
*is thinking of passwording her soon to be yaoi scan page*
eventually
T-T
and oi oi!
if ANYONE wants to find out what mangas i have for sale e-mail me at my old e-mail..
but put "NIkki's maga for sale" in the title
bashmentgyalATyahooDOTcom
-_-
like i need anyMORE spam
and serious buyers only.
T-T
and i want :
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
THIS
b>THIS
THIS!!!!!

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[Thursday, September 18, 2003|11:51 p.m.][Guileless Desire]crickets in my basement. KAWAII DESU!

^_^
] wheeeeeeeee.
closed with wayne today.B erm.. wodr didn;t however close any earlier than normal..B though express and the limited were closed by 4pm
and the guess store was closing at around.. 5ish
XD I GOT UGL VOL 2!
i saw it sitting ont eh shelf in work..a nd snatched it up and bought it!
T-T
LUKA!
*spoiler*
I don't like it that much..
some pannels it's nice.. some it's not
<3 Luiel *sp* very much!
he's such a cutie!
dorky cute!
erm............ orderd mad amnga that won't be released till jan.
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
isbn # hol;d the power!
shame i can't get manga from japan sent there though.
>xD special order at kinokunya maybe?
anyhow.. i'mma keep it short sine my dad says the power flickered a lil bit before.
-_-
] but yeah.. youngin was tehre..
*SQUEAK*
KAWAII DESU NE!
AND..
some HOT ASS ASIAN GUYbI'M THINKING HE'S FLIP.. OR MIXED WITH FLIP
OMG........... HE WAS ALL MANLY!
:E *drooling*
*__________________* AND HE HAD TO BE OVER 23 YRS OLD..
I think it's the day guy who sees lan everyday...
he has a brownish tan beaded buhiddist bracelt
and patrick was there..

AITE!
yo pat... coem on man..
my prof lets us out early if we finish our work
it's not like eng class where you stay for the ful 2 or however many hrs
so please..
no more 20 questions
if i have to explain EVERY Thusrsday why i'm early...
><#################
yeah...
that aside...B i found a digi cam online for.. ^________________________^
under 200 bucks..
and it's a GOOD ONE TOO!
xDDDDDDDDD

And theses crickets remind me of my pet george...
i had a pet cricketB last year around this time.
he was so cute!
about an inch long too
george was big.
some of you will/may remember him..
some may not.
but meh. whatever.

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[Thursday, September 18, 2003|09:14 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Red.. [em]- Dir en Grey

For Abby/Die Die
wha.. you think i forgot? :P
and one for 'Moo also

Dongyi gave me this link to a wonderful diru site
^_^
all'ay know how lazy..
erm.. >_< busy i am i can't dl songs..
and winmx is being a stupid bitch as of late!
and shit..
i SITLL don't have butterfly or caramel drops from Baroque either.B -_-
na.. pura da.. or whomever else has it...
send it to me
winmx is a biiiiiiiiiiitch!
i may go to soulseek anyhow.
I <3 MY FELLOW MIYASHI!
^_^
dorky moment of the day!

and keipi..
T-T i gotta make you one tonight
*feels really bad*
and who is jiro? i found some site on dongyi's site.. one of many
and soem artist did a pretty good cg of him
^_^B though to be honnest.. i don't like hyde with the blonde hair that much..
:/
i like him with black hair
though i've seen a few pics of him w/ the blonde that looke dnice
than again.. some times he looks good.. some times he dont..
you know how people have a good side and a "bad" side
i know my good side....

EVERY SIDE!!!!!!!!!!!


*preens*
haha jk jk

*thinks for a moment*
i just like tilting my head.
^_^B i don't like stright on pics of me much..
or rather.. when OTHER PEOPLE take pics of me
@_@
*is not making sense*
nto that i ever do to soem of you on here anyhow..
anyways!
i gotta get ready to catch the bus..
and make color prints today!
>XD
i think i'll MAIL you that eating pic ya know
your mom would be happy
*keels over laughing*
shit.. i dunno where thouse negatives are actually.
those pice are SOMEWHERe on my desk.
so you are safe.. for now.
;p

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[Thursday, September 18, 2003|12:34 a.m.][Guileless Desire] Syoku Kurenai - Dir en Grey

Jack
You're Jack, the most handsome pirate in the
Caribbean!

Pirates of the Caribbean: Who are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
Jack+Eliz
"You will be mine," is what your man
would say! So get ready to melt because youre
soon to be property of Captain Jack Sparrow!
"Shiver me timbers" is right. You
turn him on because you match his light-
hearted, down-to-earth charisma, trust in his
abilities to please you and make things better,
and you would do anything for him. So pack
light for that honeymoon! He's already got all
you need...and you've got all HE'll ever want.
Rowr!

What would your Pirates of the Caribbean man say to you?
brought to you by Quizilla
yeah man.. gotta get this in *gasp shock* dvd.
-_-
anyhow..heidi is quiting as of the 30th.
um.... saw the youngin today. ^_^
XD
went with janine to find niel sohe can help her pic out a Mac.
he wasn't tehre.
meh.
today was dull adn i'm wasting time typing about it
all in all.. i want my damned MANGAS!
UGM,DD AND PK are all out alfready..
and i can't order vol 3 of PK either
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and fuckin vol 4 i ordered MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD long time ago was sittin there in the CUSTOMER HOLDS sectionBNOT the employee holds section!
*PULLS OUT HAIR*
THESE FUCKIN PEOPLE HAD THE WRONG PHONE # DOWN FOR ME TOO!
*HOLDS HEAD*
but i orderd some manga thats commin out in januaryt hough.. :3 sot hat's a plus
Tokyopop has an nice looking one comming out.B Les BiouxB or soemthing.. i forget
anyhow...B my mom got my tripod and i <# her very much for it!B XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I GOT A TRIPOD!
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

muwahahahahaha!
AND!
guess hwo's making color 8x10 prints tomorrow?
XD
yeah man.. mad color negatives..
mad oics to enlarge too!
*is amped*

and this weeks weather report is so whacked
it said rain and cloudyness all week..
it's been dry as a bone
and i hope it STAYS that way too
XD DAY TRIP TO NYC!
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT!
unless.......

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[Wednesday, September 17, 2003|01:24 p.m.][Guileless Desire]

Ne, fuzzy..
i gotta see.. i have alot and i have to factor in shipping fees..
T-T
but it's like.. tokyopop/mixxmagazine, 2 issues of smile
and some other ones..
old issues of ranma 1/2.. like.. regular comic book issue
all are translated..
so yeah..
i'll let you know when i sort through them

*sighs*
ok.. that aside..
i'm tired.
saw Mtachbook Men last night with my sis and her bf
it was hilarious
i love nicholas cages.
NOT LUST!
but i like how he acts.. is wha ti should say.B that.. and he needs a hug
T-T
he alwyas lookslikehe's gonna cry.
but i guess cuz he has.. as ryan would say.. basset hound eyes
i call it soulful
he calls them drunka nd glassy looking
ROFL
anyhow.
Cage was a Con "artist"
and i can't go into more detail w/o spoiling
but it's good.
he'd neurotic/ obsessive compulsive.. so yeah/...
good movie all around though

hrmmm..
i feel awful
i LOVE my theories of personalities class
but i never have time to read the book/make time
T-T
and iLOVE that pysh shit too!
it's so intrigueing!
ic an psychoanalyze everyone i know..
>XD
and so far.. we've covered freud and jung
so yeah.. they have differing views..
but most of you have fit themold already
oniline people whom i've known for a while
AND rl people too
^_^
it's so KEWL!
AND i have myself and my mom down too
i dunno.. we have a research project to do...
but i can't pic a topic
i love ALL of the theoires though
yeah.. even Frued with his sex crazed ideas..
but then again.. he was during the Victorian era..
and they werw ALL about sexual repression..B so yeah..it makes sense..
*sigh*
but worst of all..
i keep falling asleep in class
NO MORE LATE NIGHTS!
sorry Dongyi..
T-T
i'd love to im you all night...
but i can't anymore
*sigh*
and i've made a todo list for thismonth till nov!
soyeah.. i gotta get moving ont hat domian and shit.
when i get it.. who ever wants to be hosted?
just drop me a line
and shit. i need a digi cam
ok ok.. i don't NEED one
but i want one..
one under 200 bucks.
T-T
i gave up on the minolta and the cannon cool pix
too damend expensive.
cuz....
i aint makin that much..
aite.. i actually CAN get it with 2 paychecks..
but i need to put the 400+ BACK into my account.
fuckin textbooks!
-_-
and i STILL need to buy like.. 6 ZIP DISKS!
fuckin school!
-_-
AND i need to measure my bro's room too...
so i can decide on if i should buy a bed or not

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[Tuesday, September 16, 2003|05:28 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Back Seat Dog- the pillows

went to pier1
they didn't have as much as they used to have.
i'm so disappointed
went to ikea too..
i think i'll get a bed with drawers under it..
the room is THAT small
called up and set up my direct deposit
started looking through myt hings..
i've decided to sell some of my manga..
i have EVERY issue of mixx/tokyopop ever published.B and they are allin pretty good to excelent condition
i need to set up an account on half.com or amazon..B :/
so much to do
i didn't even use the japanese book i bought from work yet.
i only skimmed it
T-T
no philly no nyc today
-_-
saturday?..
most likely not though
so yeah..
lots to do
funny thing about this song...
it's based off of some american song
cuz i SWEAR TO GOD I HEARD THE SONG IN DELIA'S
this was when i was droppin off spidah's card.. and buyin my shirts
but yeah..
i wanna find out what song it is based off of.
T-TB all i know the chorus is "here comes the mail/male"
i dunno which one....B cuz for THIS song.. it's not listed int eh lyrics.. B you you OBVIOUSLY hear it clearly
kinda like whenyou hear the singer go "Yeah" or something in a song
it's not written down
but yeah man
i love this song.. and if YOU can help me figure out what the other song is..
i'd realy really appreciate it
damn.. two favors in less than a month!
:/
but it's not like i can run in and ask anyhow
i'm usually running to work or BACK to work from break
:/
poot.
whtever
not like you read my blog anyhow
*shrug*

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[Tuesday, September 16, 2003|01:09 p.m.][Guileless Desire]bandelero - pinchers

full of shit.
you're so full of shit
-_-
*HOLDS HEAD*
i mean..
stuffed up toilet.. overflowing with feces full of shit
that smells
ROFL
^_^
yeah. i'm in an odd mood
and things make me laugh and laugh.
i'm out
oh! YAY for Die Die.B ^______________________^
yeah.. my lazy ass didn't put the link.

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[Tuesday, September 16, 2003|12:50 p.m.][Guileless Desire]blessed assurance- radio hymn station. O_o

odd.. 2 saturdays we sang this at my aun'ts funeral..
and the hymn before was...
?_? i forget..
but it makes me cry..
] OH!
how great thou art
i hate that song
not hate it
it makes me cry.
all the funerals i went to as a child..
they ALWAYS played/sang that

anyhow.. the reason for htis update is..B i'm deleting all of my pics form ecomplanet.
the cliques/fanlsiting buttons will stay.. for now.
but eventually they will go also.
i gotta see that guy about hosting my page with his company too
and ifyou got my e-mail..you all know what to do.
this ain a joke..
i'm gettting CRAZY spammed there.
and it sucks!
anyhow.. my mom got back home.. but she lookssleepy..B no pier 1.. no ikea today..
so philly it is..
since i gotta go to a thrift store in trenton anyhow.
^_^
FABRIC HUNTING!

also.. 50 cent...
A FAKE?
who'da thunk it?

>_>

<_<
*raises hand*
sorry. but i wasnt' feelin him after hearing my bro play hsi songs DAY IN AND DAY OUT!
HIS BEATS ARE WHACK!
O_O*SHAKES YOU PEOPLE*
WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!

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[Tuesday, September 16, 2003|10:24 a.m.][Guileless Desire]ڱ Paradisiac Door - Yamato (from White Bound)

^_^ good morning happy campers!
XD i loved camp candy..
that show was the shit!
*cough*
and yes.. that was a real cough.
my allergies are being a bitch.
hrmmmmm
Pura na moved her blog.
welcome back Pura!
and Spidah is sweet
and Rice is so precious too
and i can't breathe
damned allergies.
but today is my day off.
i want to go to pier one and buy some stuff for my soon to be made over room
my inspiration comes from these:
my ideal room
would have been sble to dot hsi one.. had my attic bebn finished
soothing room!
a room with a work area.


i'm debating buying a new bed.. and wardrobe from ikea.
I LOVE their sleek styles
scandi furniture looks so nice and modern..
yeah yeah..it is cheap quality sometimes.. but stiiiiiiiiiiiiiiil
it looks so pretty!
?_?
did i mentiont he powere went out at school yesterday.. hence my class *i was in class* ended early..
and my afternoon class was cancelled
so i was stuck in New brunswick for mad long...
tookt he first bus i saw..
-_-
but todd kept me company!
funny prrvy goth man
*cough* industrial goth.. or somehitng.B he was goth BEFORE it became hip....
yeah man.. he's old.. like.... 30+*thinks 35 personally*
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
but he's coolthough
know alot about the business
so yeah.. my day sucked yesterday..
and i fmy mo0m doesn't come nome soon. i'mma bounce to either nyc or philly.
i want more PEACH SODA!
so i'm kinda leaning towards nyc
^^:;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
that shit tasted so good!
i'd buy a case if i could
i've yet to see them mess up peach flavored stuff.B ^_^
and i need to get some hi-chew also

i mean damn.
my mom knew i closed last night..
and she dropped ethan off to school.. that should have been at 8.
so.. where is she?
and she left her phone

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[Monday, September 15, 2003|12:49 a.m.][Guileless Desire]

My lil weather crush Dave Price is on channel 2 now!
*is so upset about that*
he was on fox five. and he's so dorky cute!
*is DEAD SERIOUSLY*
HE'S SO DORKY!
T-T now he's on stinky ol channel 2.
i'll watch for him alone.
*grumbles*
YOU!!!!! you can draw your ass off.
AND you got a nice layout!
and you.
you can draw your ass off too!
*golf claps*
and did i mention i LOVE YOUR SITE too?
i've been lookin for screen shots of those games.. for AGES
*wants those games so badly*
i need to take my ass to bed already

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[Monday, September 15, 2003|12:28 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Fool on the planet - the pillows

ok..
i was about to have a heart attack. my lil bro is like.
Venus Williams was shot.
she's dead
I'm like.. hold on..........
*zooms on the net*
it was thier OLDER half sister.
*is sad still*
still sucks..
that aside.. you noticed how i didn't report about the concert right? we decided to go on sunday INSTEAD of saturday..
notice.. today.. er... 30 min ago was sunday
-_-.. i couldn't get out of the house in time..
correction!
my dad had me watch ethan ALL FUCKIN DAY!
so i told kristen to take her bf with her..
T-T
No n.e.r.d
no the roots
i hope she had fun though....
*is so upset*
-_-# but my room is almsot clean..
*small.. very small victory*
i <3 pura, riceo and spidah!
you guys are so precious!
MUCH LUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUV!
my lil youngins!
yeah man. school sucks..
and yeah..
i think i'm slightly paranoid of guys i'm not 100% at ease with
....
i mean shit. i knew hen for like.. over 4 yrs..
and it took like.. 4 yrs for me to go to his house for anime screenings
so yeah...
....
speaking of guys..
my mind wandered on Chenga last week..
but i was so busy i didn't get to call him

and damnit. I wanna go to Miami carnival. t-t
damned work & school and employment..B and not having off. and not having enough money

GRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
i'm highly debating a digi cam over the mp3 player.. they both cost 200+ish?
i want a nice one..
canon 3 mega pixel cool pix.. vs a 20gb ipod
T-T
if i made like 9 bucks per hour.. i'd have BOTH of them AND my phone already
and oh yeah.. happy BELATED b-day *us time* Miyavi
yeah. i'm dorky
*flips all nay-sayers off*
and damnit.
i can't send a tape cuz my aunt's camera uses the tiny tapes.
-_-#

SUCKTASTIC!


and this whole week will be .. kinda sorta rainy.
-_-
GREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAT!
-_-
AND!
it gets better..
i gotta send Loco's cds and i'm booooooooooke!
i need to get my direct deposit shit together already
*cough* inappropreate song.
*keels over laughing*

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[Saturday, September 13, 2003|01:47 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Ekisentorikku Otona Yamai - Miyavi

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIYAVI!


あなたおよび幸福な誕生日Miya-sama^_^*smiles*Iは、多くのケーキおよび目的を備えた幸福な日を持つことを望みます..そして..プレゼント!多くのプレゼント。* ヒント・ヒント*^_^



yeah.. damned east coast... -_-
but there it's already the 14th.. so yeah...

my day is going crappily.
yay!

after wok it was SUPPOSED to be Ben ,Patrick and myself going to Fusion and Applebee's....

I call both of them up lettin them know my dad was like sure you can go.
Ben's like. sure. I can go.
Patrick too...

So i give pat the directions and shit.
and i'm looking for my corset like shirt....
and i can't find it.
so i'm flinging clotehs around..
and i STILL can't find it..
i deduced my sis tookt he wrong bag with her..

anyhow. so i throw on a black tank top and jeans.. and my black hoodie..
and yeah. i'm set to go.
pat parks infront of the wrong houses.

-_- *holds head*
so we call ben. and he's like yeah i'll be there.
coolies.
then pat and i ge to applebee's and .. no ben.. we can't call him.. he's not pickin up..
-_- *thinks something fishy is going on*
so i buy the appitizers cus they are mad cheap that time of night...

but i wasn't hungry though
and they didn't tastes so tastey.
:/
btu i had 1 chiken quesedia *killed that word GOOD!*
AND i took my motzerella sticks and buffalo wings home.

i don't like thier food.
i'm never eating there again.

-_-
so we gotta get to fusion before 2am cus they close..

we leave appple bee's at 1:220ish.
and we call ben.
he's like i was fighting with my gf.
she says we don't hang anymore.
so i'm like. oooooooh? you didn't invite her. you're so eman!
and he's like i DID but seh can't be out that late.
-_-
so i'm like you still commin.
and he's like yeah. i'll met ya there.
so pat and i go.
it was so dead int hat place.
and i didn't give the guys there a second look either.
they were playing LoTR though.. i dunno wich one.. and it was near teh end.
some blonde guy got whacked int eh ehad..
and some tree thing was talking.
anf gfrodo was being bullied by some people. *only remembers frodo :p*
it hink the dark haired guy was .. ?_? Algron..
i don't fuckin know.

any how.. i get soem green apple bubble tea.. which was a plus.
the only GOOD TASTING thing i had all night.

fuckin ben never showed up.
and pat's like what is there to do now?
and i'm like how'd I know!?!?!
i don't fuckin go anywhere this late in this country..


aite. i'm not hangin with them anymore..
and it seemed like a plot to get me to hang with patrick.

-_-
NOT cool!

i hate this kind of dodging and weaving hsit.
if you like me say so.

i'm not lookin for anyone so yeah.
you're outta luck anyhow.
-_-

so i could have gotten some sleep instead of traipsing around for like almsot 3hrs with patrick and playing phone tag with ben
and fuckin ben!
>< i think he knew about patrick's plan too.
cuz afgter he hung up when i called him..
like 5 min later he'd be talkin to patrick.
and i'm like.. so what he say?
is he commin or what?
and pat'd be like.yeah he's commin...

*is getting mad*

OMFG!
i'mma hurt the BOTH of them so badly!

i'm all sleepy and shit because of them!

><
and i need my fuckin sleep!!!!!!
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[Friday, September 12, 2003|08:56 p.m.][Guileless Desire]

T-T
the youngin' has a gf
shiku shiku*
and i saw this kid Grayson!
he went to my hs.. but i didn't recognize him though
he loooooks so fuckin HOT!
i was checkin him out too.
^_^ but i saw he had a gf.. so i wa slik.. T-T
but then he cones tot he cafe and is like.. you know ron
and i'm like.. yeah?
you went to whs?
and i'm like.. yeah..
you took the kensington bus?
and i'm like yeah?
and he's like. YO! IT'S ME GREYSON!
SO I'M LIKE OMG! AND I WAS GONNA HUG HIM.. BUT HIS GF WAS THERE
he was so much shorter then. but cute.. but not hotness
cute like awe.
so yeah. we talk and shit
then ben is like.. yeah i hooked them up
but i liked her though
*insert me going aweeeeee t-t*
so me being me.. i sneak in the question myself

*hidoooooooooooooi*
so yeah.. that sucks
but i got my check cashed though.
:/
FUCKIN SHIT!
*IS VERY VERY SAD*

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[Friday, September 12, 2003|12:56 p.m.][Guileless Desire]

ok..
some one help me pick a domain name.
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;
i may be getting one..
but i'm too lazy to think of one right now
T-T
and i gotta get my pics off of ecomplanet..

ASAP!!!


waiiiiiii!
i'm gonna go get my color film developed!
^_^ YAY!
makin prints on.. ?_? um.. Wed?
i forget when i have class today

and the Alice Auaa-esque guy came in again today..
but i missed him.
T-T *shiku shiku*
Cat told me he was doing a show here in Oct.
*squeals*
^_^
i want him to make me pretty things!
MANY MANY PRETTY THINGS!
shit. i'll buy the fabric even
if he can make me the costumes.. *____________*
i can FINALLY COSPLAY
and i mean.. he's fuckin AWESOME!
*is all giddy again*
sigh..........and now i'm bored.' my class aint till 2pm
-_-
*debates going to woodbridge to drop off film*

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[Friday, September 12, 2003|09:41 a.m.][Guileless Desire]

^_^
i got a raise!
um.......... closed with wayne yesterday..
ok.. ok.. i don't hate his guts..
but sometimes he aggrivates me so much!
i don't like being guilt-tripped into something..
so at the VERY end..
since i didn't want to bring up the note i left him from yesterday.
he said he'd gladly take me off of closing on Sat so i can work sundays.. bt we'll hav e to talk more
AND WE GOT OUT AT 11:30!
usually we get out at like min to 12, 12:30.. erm.. late..
we usually get out late.
:/
so yeah. i was happy.

and spidah.
you'll know when sh gets it.. TRUST ME!
ona nother note..
i feel like craptoday
damend plague
and ethan said bye bye to me today when he went to school
*which is near me anyow..hence i get rides*
HE'S SO ADORABLE!

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[Tuesday, September 9, 2003|05:58 p.m.][Guileless Desire]

aite.. so i didn't end up going to nyc
i HAD top see ryan since earlier inthe summer
ona nother note!
XD
my school is int he bad boy this bad boy that video!
i do remember cat calling me and telling me about some vague thing being filmed a few weeks ago..
but i wa slike.. ?_? wtf? no. i'm sleepy.
so meh.
no chances at being a video ho
see my cry.
.... yeah fuckin right
-__- puffy annoys me alot lately.
so i'm glad i wasn't there.
but her friends were CLEARLY visable though.
*is all giddy*
the girl tayped it ans was showing it
i walk into the rooma nd go... *squint*aint that OUR baseball feild?
WTF? IT IS OUR BASEBALL FIELD!
so now our school gets a major bigup cuz of that.
YAY!
MORE MONEY!
*coughcough*
and trhe fucking lab tech guy REFUSES to put our G5 MACs together
the freakin midget man
*has ntohing against midgets or dwarfly peole*
but i got beef with THIS guy.
granted he's not that short.. but him being all buff.. OVERLY buff SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO doesn't help it.
-_-#
i hate him so much.
the end.

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[Tuesday, September 9, 2003|11:46 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Chinese Burn - Curve

Shi-chan... T-T
that's just horrible.
*hugs you tight*
I'll kill them all..
usually i don't..
but... that reaction of your's is a different story.
T-T

Fucking Jason..
i can't get on to him..
he was gonna make some music for me
-_-;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
I know of 2 other people.. but one isn't online..a nd i don't know him like that
and the other...
i don't think it will bode well to ask him...
:/
not that' he's not good or anyhting..B but not right now...
*nervious*
lots of luck to him though..B i wonder if those guys ever got back to him though?
i haven't seen him say anything since last time..
*shrug*
shit..
I need a fuckin mike..
then i can do it my-damned-self
or.. i can figure out how E's site got it done..
and get some Yves Slain music
^-^ heh heh heh
all ligal though.. no hijacked music..
i'd have to get permission fromt he artist though.
*chews lip*
damnit!

on a brighter note..
this semester is gonna be hard as hell.
i can tell already.
T-T

that aside..YOMI!
YOU'RE HILLARIOUS!
^_______________________^
I don't hate him though..
but his HORRBLE BASHING of certain bands may confuse the uneducated newbies who want a different flavor
*shrug* and i like seeing PICTURES!
MUWAHAHAHAHA!
but yeah.. he's getting a lil out of hand as of late..
but meh.. what can ya do?
boycott the site?
yeah... why IS he the only one doing this shit?
there are OTHER people who get in the same way..
*knows of a girl on lj*
granted she doen't meet the big wigs of j-rock.. :/
damn.. now i'm sstills leeyp evewnt hough i went to bed at 12 and got up at 6..
went BACK to sleep at 8ish.. and just got up.
and i have nothing to do..
maybe i'll buy MY PHOTO ESSAY BOOK
me + nothing to do = money spent frivilously
like i NEEEEEEEEEEEEEED to be buying shit now?
*weak laugh*

*moments later..........*
i bought it.
my will is so weak...
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA!
hm... i better leave for .. hm.. maybe philly.. i've never been there before. i dunno..
nyc of philly?
blech.
NYC!
philly next day off!
w000000000000000000000t!
*goes to get ready*
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[Monday, September 8, 2003|07:58 p.m.][Guileless Desire]niel and i talking

*yawns*
i'm sleepy a moot.
my arms, thighs and back hurt...
that's what i get for trying to clean my room..
in a few hours..
rearranging solid WOOD furniture..
single handedly
my allergies are going crazy because of it..
i even had the medical fase mask on.
anyhow.. closed with Dlast night..
Ben left early
^_^ adorabooo!
^_^
OH!
the student fair was today.. i saw mad people
no Changa though. *pouts*
ALSSSSSSSSSO!
^________^ *NIKO TIMES A KAJILLION*
i saw Rich today..
he's alot less bulk though..
i eman.. you can trell.. and he wasn't HUGE before..
Jilli's bf is huge.. he's not...
anyhow so we made small talk
T-T he's not comming back this semester
but it was good seeing him again
i'm seeing MAD people i went to elemantary thru HS with.
nostalgia hits and we talk for a while.

anyhow.. my room is like.. 90% clean... and yeah.. i'm all sicky and sore now
but that's cool though..
what else?
ah. Kristren and i went to the mall today.. she wanted some shirt...
since we're going to the Liquid mix tour
can you say.. THE ROOTS?

Can you say N.E.R.D?!


CAN YOU GUESS WHO IS PSYCHED?
*JUMPS UP AND DOWN*
but she decided to wear her slighly stooopid shirt since she LOVES thouse guys.
^_^
and my 15 min break is about over soon..
ttyl people.
and yeah. no really late nights...
i'm too fucking exhusted in the morning.
T-T

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[Sunday, September 7, 2003|10:41 a.m.][Guileless Desire]LEMONed I scream - hide

nyan
anyone know of a goo dhosting company?
I noticed the ecomplanet changed their policy...
and due to their EXCESSIVE amount of down time lately...
i don't want to stay with them for much longer
*grumbles*
my whole site it with them ya know..
well. thE pictures for it anyhow.
T-T
AND ALL THE FANLISITNG GRAPHICS AND SUCH TOO!

I WAS RECOMENDED SOME.. AND I KNOW OF A GUY WHO HAS ONE IN SCHOOL....
SO YEAH.. BUT I NEED TO KEEP MY OPTIONS OPEN...
i may purchase a domain.. i'm not sure yet....
:/
but i jsut want a relaiable server.. free is best..obviously
but i'm not opposed to paying also.
this sucks so much.
-_-

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[Saturday, September 6, 2003|09:18 p.m.][Guileless Desire]One Life -t he pillows

today was the funeral.
and I cried a lil..
but mainly..
it was for ME..
I'm glad she's gone..
*gets a disgusted look*
no no.... not like.. ding dong the witch is dead..

but she was a happy and vibrant person..
and my cousin along with others.. AND myself said that she wouldn't want us crying over her like that.
she was a bright bubbly person..
so I was a lil choked up.. but then I was fine.

Tommy.. her eldest.. he was taking it hard..
her daughter was taking it quite well though.
my grandmother was there also...
she wasn't crying insanely.. but I can tell she was guilty

uncle Ricky wasn't there...
they were really close..
so I can see why he'd not want to go...
he'd probably be hysterical or something.

and all that was being said was that my aunt touched the lives of the many people she worked with and knew.

and though she will be missed.. she'll always be remembered for the good things she's done and the good times we had with her.

my mom's pastor/co-worker/friend rose was there..
such a nice old Jamaican woman.
thick accent with alot of spunkiness to her.
she said some words and sang a lil.
then we viewed the body...
my auntie looked so much thinner than the last time I saw her.
*much later I told my sis the same and she was like.. if you saw her when she was sick.. you'd say she looked fine.*
granny cried..
but not..
horribly so..like throwing her self on the floor/on my aunt's body
I simply smiled at the peaceful look on my aunt's face.
I didn't say anything.
she knows how I feel anyways.
she knows I loved her and I'll try to do my best in my art like she encouraged me to do.
and Tommy seemed so much better after the service too.
he seemed so burdened when we first got to her house before the funeral..
but after..
his heart seemed so much lighter..

she was cremated by the way....
I'm sorry.. I don't want to see that..
nor did my mom or my auntie Marissa...
I dunno if granny went though...
since she didn't come back to auntie Marva's house after...
some people went though....
when I die..
I want people to be happy..
no wearing black!
no crying !
I want lots of food and music.

I hate seeing people cry..
it kept making ME cry...
not for my aunt.. but for THEIR pain...
hence.. no crying.. AT ALL!
and I'd rather have a crappy coffin in a small funeral parlor with LOTS of people
then to have a big fancy funeral and hardly anyone..

hence my reason not to hold grudges..
and to try to work things out..
or to let them go....

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[Saturday, September 6, 2003|01:09 a.m.][Guileless Desire]

highlights of today..
i had tastey bento and a manga w/o using my money.
don't feel like goign into detail
but.. i'm not doign my sis another favor like THAT again
-_-
printed out 40 copies of hymns..
it seems that the fuenral is early instead of at 2pm.
meaning.. i nee dto go dleep.. like. now.
:/
tell me why. when i was on the way to work..
a fucking FUNERAL PROSESSION drived down the road
i'm like.. cryign and shit.. tryign not to bawl
then when it hinkl uit's over.. fuckin One Life byt he piilows comes on
i <3 that song so mcuh.. but it's a kinda sad melencholy song
some sweet ehart int he anime community went and requested it to be translated for me.
awwwwwww.
so i know what it means....
and i'm like.. singing.. chest constricting.. tears.. rolligndown my face
it was horrid
got to work. got the PROPER chack.. called my sis. who was SUPOSED to meet me there at 1pm.
bithc is like.. i'mma have to make that 2pm/
i told her straight up.. i can't cash my check yet.. so yeah//
she was going to some yankee's game with her bf so she had to go
i say. dont' worry i'll go and take care of it.
blah.. fuck that
teh fun parts
went ot K-town in manhattan like Mi suggested.
i had some tastyt hing.. i forget.. i'll go tuseday anyways.. -_-
went to book off and kinokunya.. they didn'thave shit!
> but i get some peach soda, some hi-chew and a freash bento made
fried seafood bento... like. regular sea food.. no squid or any of that shit.
*insert homer simpson drooling*
tasted goooooood!
*keeps the bottle so she can buy more soda*
i was gonna call ryan since i the PATH stopped in journal sq..
but i didn't have any fucking change.
had i the time..i've gone to his house or someshit
but remember. it's school time. so that's a no too
*sighs* lots of cuties in the B&N though.
this cute white guy all helped me find that ungreatful bitch's boosk too
ANYWAYS!
Takeshi Murakami who did the eyes love you louis vuitton designs..
he had an installation/sculpture in 'feller center
so ie as like. shit! left my silde film at home *needs to finish it*
anyhow... that' it really..
i'm sleepy as hell
aite. ja

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[Friday, September 5, 2003|10:23 a.m.][Guileless Desire]

i' scheduled for tomorrow.. but i have tonight off..
my sis and i are going to manhattan to buy her textbooks..

in other news... the funeral as i found out yesterday.. will be TOMORROW!
so i had to call in work TODAY to tell them that...
i was up till like 3am looking for that damned streaming beat shuffle thing
i think you had to pay for it....

*HUGS Ariel*
you are too sweet.
and yes.. i WAS crying when i read it.
to know that other people aren't like.. HOW DARE YOU DO/SAY THAT...
it makes this seem like i'm not the only one who though about itM
and how basically no one needs to deal with that..
and not alone either...
and it ate the first one.. i was so upset.. but whatever
i'mma link you. ok?
and tell them to do the same if they want to
your concern about me is so endearing.

^-^
now i gotta talk to that other one to find out what's up...
*yawns*
did i mention i was up till 3 looking for that miyavi beatshuffle thing?
i'm so tired.
this whole week i've been going to bed way late too

that aside.. SPidah.. you shall be happy soon.
^-^ i delivered the card.
so.. you'll know when it's recived.

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[Wednesday, September 3, 2003|12:38 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Tomorrow - Yellow 6

Whatever else happend today is.. so meaningless to me right now
My Auntie Marva...
She passed away this evening.
The whole time she was in hospital I never got a chance to visit her.
I'm kinda sad about that.. and about her passing..
But happy all the same.
I mean.. she had AIDS...
She was very sick and in ALOT of pain....
When my mom picked me up.. I was telling her about my Boss Kim listening to the Left Behind series..
*a biblical radio er.. drama about AFTER the end days*
She's like.. that's good you told her what station it's on....
Ten she was wondering if I had class because she was looking for me...
I wa slike.. no i went in to see if my books came in yet
tehn she wa slike.. We all went into Brooklyn.. your aunt passed
I was about to cry.. then I just stopped.
I guess I can deal with with death SO much better due to my Auntie Ruby being murdered and shit....
So I just asked if she was in any pain,a nd who was there..
and how did Tommy and Danika *her kids.. say.. 26+ and 20ish*
She told me that Tommy took it hard..and mu Uncle Junior too.
Then she was like.. they sany hymns and said prayers over her...
I mean.. I love my aunt.. but I'm happy she's without pain.
I'm just worried about her house now..
How will Tommy and his wife beable to afford living there?

A date for the funeral hasn't been decided yet.. so...
I still gotta let my job know.

and that's it...
I wanted to recap some special times with my aunt..
but there are so many
she told me to stop biting my nails and she's give me one of her beautiful sivler rings..
*weak laugh* I don't have any..
She could cook her ass off
When seh was a teen she was sent to Italy on some..
I dunno.. live in maid thing?
it was about the 60's in Trinidad..
My gran though she'd be giving her daughter a better life by sending her there
My Auntie Marva made the BEST tasting AUTHENTIC Italian food
And when she made home food *aka caribe food* that tasted good too
i remember the 4th of July barbeques we used to have.
she'd be making salad in the house with my mom
talking up a storm...

I miss her so much.
We all do.
I hope she knew she was loved....
But sometimes.. she didn't think she was loved...
Even by granny
I hope granny was there though...........
Then she could have died happy..
Truly happy.

But.. I doubt my granny was there..
Since Uncle Trevor got shot... she doesn't go to hospitals...
And yes... he died too...
At only 19 yrs..
Mugged for 3 bucks and shot..
I think I was about.. 7 or 8 when it happened too
Anyhow, that's the reason my granny hates hospitals..
I think..
I think she saw him die or something....
No one really knows...

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[Tuesday, September 2, 2003|02:52 a.m.][Guileless Desire]still crickets..................

ashes to ashes..
dust to dust
it's been real...

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[Tuesday, September 2, 2003|01:58 a.m.][Guileless Desire]crickets....

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI!
Pura na has a cute lil ghost thing on her hiatus page
*gushes.. then strangles pura*
OI OI!
you leaving AGAIN?
but you are workin on your layout though... so it's cool
<3 ya pura
and i'm glad YOU liked it too.B so did mostly everyone.
=_=
so sleepy i lost the battle with my layout folks.
i don't think i'mma ust it....
it's going strigh into the grpahics part of my page
eventually..
same with the multitude of fansigns i made
shit.
i gotta do another post at cuties

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[Monday, September 1, 2003|11:24 p.m.][Guileless Desire]that 70's show

*sigh*
got up at 11.. and we all headed out to brooklyn
parked in newark and tookteh train in to nyc
then we took a train from Penn station to nodstand
my cousin Silene had a booth between Nodstrand an Brooklyn ave. so that was our food spot
jumped in a few bands.
it was all good!
Wyclef was on a JAMACIAN float though
WTF is up with that?
he's HAITIAN!
THE NEXT 5 BANDS AFTER THE ONE HE WAS IN WERE HAITIAN FLOATS
YEAH MAN.. maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad Haitian love was being shown today.
then we saw Rupee.
*insert dreamy sigh from Joy*
i dunno man. he's cute and all. but he doesn't photograph well AT ALL
he looks odd
but we jumped in his band. too
we missed burning flames though.
I <3 THEM SO MUCH!
thankfully we didn't see machel
i think i would have tossed a bottle at his scruffy ass
i can't STAND his look now!
he seems like an old vagrant from trinidad!
hsu ugly sloppy dread and shit.
he's pissin me off now
i don't think Destra came up though
i like her.
she's good
Alison Hinds is gettin tired as of late too
caribe soca artist people...
*is amused by the RED STRIPE BEER COMMERCIAL*
ROFL!
but yeah.. it was only misting today.. thank gawd.
so yeah.. saw lots of.. things that need to be dropped at the bottom of the sea
O_O i mean.. some chick..
she had some hooker stiletto boots.. and like.. a net tank top and a neon pink bra
did i mention her boots were neon pink../
AND her thong was showing.. and she was.. burtsing out of her pants/bra
*holds head*
then there were the SUPER patriotic ones..B YEAH!
lemme color my hair like my country's colors..
FUCK NO YOU DUMB ASS!
upside: we have jokes for days now.
^-^
we met up with my parents and Silene and ate some roti.
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ROTI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111


i didn't get any poloori though
and we weren't that far to the shooting though.
I mean.. we saw the ambulences though..
scurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrray!
so yeah.. we waited.. no bands came up
then some more came up.. 3 more haitian bands.
MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD haiti love on the parkway
^-^ yay?
whatever.
my feet hurt and i'm tried.

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[Monday, September 1, 2003|03:30 a.m.][Guileless Desire]The Matrix

>:O


as you can see... i'm home.
*insert colerful experlatives here*
-_-
It seems by the min my chances of going to J'overt this year are getting slimmer by the min..
like LAST year.
the WONDERFUL wash out that made me not go to J'overt OR Labor Day 2002!
I'm WAY beyond pissed now
My literally LAST jump up may this year ALSO be a wash out
this fuckin sux.
*UNDERSTATEMENT OF THE CENTURY*
-_-
but berofe that.. i was watching Gureda's mom for her while she went to a BBQ with her kid and her.. soon to be fiance
*never looked fot that ALT code mind ya. :p*
I was to get there at 12 and leave at 8pm..
making a cool 30 bucks
tell me why.. i was about to got o nyc since i hadn't heard from Guerda all morning.
so by like.. 12:50 i was LIVID
Mind you.. i gave up going to the LAST day of BAAF for this
the only convention i COULD have gone too before school starts
but the plus out weighed the minuses.. for my POCKET and i said yes
*HOLDS HEAD*
ok.. i need to clarify some things....
Guerda is HAITIAN but she knows english!
her mom is HAITIAN but she DOES NOT
but i'm like.. that's cool. Jonathan.. Guerda's sone.. would be home..and he knows Creole
hence.. EASY cash!

I was SO fuckin wrong...
really fuckin wrong
Guerda took jonathan with her..
i was alone with her mom..
but it was coolthough.. she was cookin and singin and shit... in CREOLE but what the hell
then.. she fell asleep in her chair.. and i was doodleing..
did some other shit too.
Gave PJ the heads up about a job!
SECOND GOOD DEED OF THE DAY
anyhow
she gets up and goes to the window and i'm kinda wathing her
not getting alarmed right..
Oh.. maybe i forgot to mention.. she has DEMENTIA!
yeah................ good times...
-_-
so i'm like.. aite.. lemme get some juice to drink ro some shit..
The lady was out in the front yard in like 0 sec flat
and i'm like.. HOLLY SHIT!
*watches to see if she will run or some thing*
she had a hip replacement. so she can't get too far..
so i see her inthe front yard talking..so i'm inside straining to see who it is..
then she's onthe move in a flash..ok ok. not a FLASH but still
she's wandered off in Guerda's OLD neighborhood..
so yeah... scary
so i put my shoes on in ahurry and wak withher down the sttreet
lsitening her talk/rant in creole
and i say rant.. cuz..she didn't seem to happy and was jesturing frantically
so we walk to the end of the block and she stops
then starts calling Jonathan at the top of her lungs
*insert sweatdrop times a kajillion*
so i try to tell her Jonathan is with Guerda..
but i gues she didn't understand me..^^;;;
to go back to the house and then she is just standing there talking
then she's off again.. doign the same thing
so we go AGAIN and she does it AGAIN
-__-;;;;
and this time she's on the people's property too
so after that lil episode... i SOMEHOW mangage to get her int ehoushe
i IMEDIATELY cally up Paul and ask for Guerda to talk to her mom
she does.a dn all is well.
but since i know.. 0.1111111111111111111111 % of french
i caught the jist that her mom was saying she raised 7 kids perfectly fine.. or some shit like that
blah blah.. watched MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD eps of I love the 70's on VH1
remember.. i haven't had cable in a lil over a year..
so yeah..i was giddy as hell
Ah remember the days vh1 was the CORNY older people version of MTV!
shit..
now they are running competition!
I mean..
MTV is the pop tart, Echo wearin, trucker hat topped, chromed out 24inch rim driving *insert "bling bling" ass SUV car thing here* driving lil sister station..
and VH1 is the more mature erm... Versace wearing, fendi bag toating, lexus driving older sister.
so yeah.. i love that show too damend much
adn i knew about EVERYTHING they were talking about too
^-^ though i'm an 80's baby
my parents thaugh me well in ABBA 101 and shit like that.
ABBA = SHINY MUSIC!*really does like abba..*B but you won't seeme rockin it like.. YEAH MAN ABBA RAWKS!
if it's on the radio i'll sing along though..B ROFL
anyhhhhhhhhhhhhho
so i watched the anna kronocovia*sp.. killed her name* special..
cuz.. basically she's hotter than BritSLUT who was on MTV PUNK'D anyhow
her story amused the hell outta me
go on lil tennis girl..
even if you don't win the world cup..
*and i don't think she won any opens eitehr.. ^^;;*
you got like.. 99.9% of the het male population holding their blue balls
and even moeaning/sweating/cumming to your name/visage
*keels over laughing*
anyhow.
then i was watching some baby thing on tlc..
poor lil baby.. she had some kind of growth on her side..*about the size of a big ol red grapefruit.. but all lumpy and mutated looking*
she was all tiny too.
the shit was all.. veiny and semi-transparent..
'cept for the blood showing in there..
my heart went out to that family
the faterh said he knew she wasn't in any pain..a nd he read up on the problem.. but he was really hurting though
SHIT!
*I* thought i was gonna start crying soon
but i wanted to watch more i <3 the 70's..
so i changed the channel
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
yeah..
i watched a good bit of that show today..
um.. from 72 to like 78?
whole lotta 70's.
yeah man.. and my brotha..*hugs him*
he looks like that lead signer guy from Queen..Freddy Murcury... kinda
anyways.. her mom comes up with a quilt.. mind you it's like 10pm..
and i'm like.. thinkin she wants me to spread the quilt out or somehsit..
so i do and i go back to watching tv
but it seems she wanted me to go to bed also.
not having anyting else to do. i go to sleep
i wake up to the phone ringing
it's my mommy. *glomps her mommy*
so basically i tell her Guerda didn't come home YET and NOT to have daddy leave w/o me
soyeah.. then i call Guerda and she's like.. oh! we left a lil later than planned
then she asked if i was gonna stay or go home since her mom was asleep
i wa slike.. i don't feel safe if she's not with someone.. and i'm thinkin they aren't TOO far anyhow
tell me why she's like. ok. i'll be there at 11:30 then.
-_-
BACK to watching i <3 the 70'S
thank GAWD she had cable
i got tired of drawing and all of that shit.
they came at about that time though.. so yeah.. and she paid me extra!
SWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!
Joy's friend Alicya is here.. so yeah..she's spending the night
since we ALL were supposed to go to J'overt
-_-
it's already half done now.
T-T
so now i'm 50 bucks richer..
yay?

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[Sunday, August 31, 2003|02:05 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Spade King - Penicillin

*yawns* DAMNED YAHOO!

work was aite.. i guess
Wayne was closing so we were all kinda on edge
Maureen as expected didn't show up
seh called out
and i was crackin up inside at that since she's "not EVER comming back"
i guess no one told Wayne
HE was surprizingly amiable tonight
Heidi and Patrick noticed it too
OH! Alison got married yesterday
she should be on her honeymoon right about now
She's such sweetness
*glomps her*
she really is.
she's sweeter than me
i've NEVER seen her get mad. or be moody or anything
ihope she has some kids tooB like.. 2 or something
and her fiance..
*is looking for the ALT thing tomake the lil accent mark*
to see them together. was PERFECT
they SO compliment each other.
I want people to see that when i get someone
*lil sigh*
and DAMN. today was rainy as hell B i had to call a cab even!
and it's so cold tonight too.
what the hell is up withthis weather?
>< it SUCKS!
and labor day .. there is a 50% chance of rain
it' better not rain
it better be fucking HEAVENLY!
And i still don't knwo what to wear either
i sitll got my black mseh ting.. but i want a red tube topt o wear under it..
But atleast J'overt will be sunny.
*sigh*

aite

THAT final realization came to me AT THAT MOMENT.

If i KNOW i'm going to work..

and i KNOW when i get home we can't talk.. how ELSE do you suppose i'll contact you?

telepathy?

I can't call during work OBVIOUSLY.

and yeah.. i would CALL and say all of this but look at the time.
I'm NOT going to be here this weekend anyhow.
and i'll only be free Friday
work and school are keeping me busy as hell

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[Saturday, August 30, 2003|05:20 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Shell - Bana

*steeples fingers*
Ok.
Lez, if you're looking for an out..
Here it is.
I'm tried being the one to iniciate conversation, plans, hangouts
even phone calls
i'm tired.
You've been really foul to me for a long time now
and i'm just tired.
I was the one trying to salvage.. our.. friendship(?)
hell. i dunno what to even call it anymore..
you were friendly at the beginning.. then you got distant and cold
so.. i am trying one last time to salvage whatever it is/was.
but if you want an out, this is it.
that's all i can say.
I really tried... but i've been noticing the signs of this for a while now..
a LONG while
maybe i'm the stupid one trying to salvage something you obviosuly didn't care much about..
i dunno
but i want the truth.
all of it.
fuck if you think i'll get hurt.
i've been beyond feeling for a while now...

so yeah...
that's it
and i'm going to drop of Spidah's card for Rochelle at her job..
because i forgot to do that before.
and if we aren't friends.. or whatever after this..
i'd feel horrible if i still had it.
I'd feel bad for cheating spidah
and i'd feel bad for cheating you too

however you choose to respond is ok.
obivously im is out since i'm at work..
so yeah...
ja ne?

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[Saturday, August 30, 2003|02:13 a.m.][Guileless Desire]

minus all the glitz and glamour we're nothing
you'er nothing
I'M nothing
why deulde ourselves in thinking we are more?
why?
i know MY reason...
I want.
many things.. but it omes down to I WANT.
There will be a new chapter written in my life soon
there is an air of change blowing around again
I'm hopign it'll be change for the good.
and resulting in me FIANLLY to lose some of my dead weight
I've had it for a while now..
but it started with Porshe...
and i THOUGHT i was smart enough to know better that to be a fool again....
But i'm not... because I WANT.
I need to g backt o hating the world again..
SELF-IMPOSED isolation
Doing for me because *I* want to
not to please.. *hasn't been doing THAT much of that anways*
I'll do as i DAMNED WELL PLEASE!
If i don't like what you did/have done/are doing now/ or NOT doing now...
TRUST ME!.. you'll know
I'm tried of all the bullshit.
*and yes.. i'm all over in this post. all'ya know me by now*

all of thosue things aside..
I want a pattern book.
Dongyi inspired me to think about sewing again.
I want to make one of thouse frilly skirts i've been seeing in Arden B.
DAMN THAT STORE FOR STEALING MY SOUL!
and Rynn told me about some EGL pattern book...
I'll look into it.
Maybe i'll eventually cosplay someday...?
I don't fucking know.
GRAH! i'm getting mad again.
When i say something.. ti's astupid idea. but whensomeone ELSE says the SAME FUCKING THING..
they are hailed as a genious!
also.. yeah i HATE thouse RAPISTS
you know EXACTLY what i mean.
i'm so wary of alot of things...
and me trying to salvage.. obviously NOTHING isn't gonna..
fuck it.
just fuck it
My CO-WORKES and my MOM AND my SIS AND JOY told me the same thing.
ignore it.
and i dunno why i can't.. but i CANT!
And i TRULY consider myself a stong person.. but i don't LIKE being FUCKING PUNKED OUT ..
ALL THE FUCKING TIME!@
It makes me want to throw up...
and yes. literally
I found out why i was so nasuious*sp* before
so yeah.

where IS viv.
T-T
i need someone to talk to.
someone who'd understand....
and BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOY WOULD SHE UNDERSTAND
and yes.. i am amused by some stupid shit
Joy wants some text-ed shirts before she goes to canada..
so i tell her to go to delia's cuz they have an oscar the grouch shirt.
for fuckin 20 BUCKS THOUGH!
-_-
it's cute and all.. but.. not for 20 bucks..
no matter if it's buy 2 get one free..
>< *is waiting for them to come down in price*
*cough* like my corset shirt...

yeah. that worked. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
i may make an a-line black satin and chiffon skirt to wear with it..
with a lil white bow or some shit
*has ideas swimming in her head*
Yo! I hope my definaiton of a fansign made sense.
ALSO! I LOVE LA FEMME NIKITTA!
the SHOW and the MOIVE
*plans on getting the soundtrack*
and Meeshies told me the Shoxx Miyavi issue may not be comming for 2-3 weeks to Kino
DAMNIT!
I miss the cat arena issue.. and now this.
and yes..he's a dorky spaz. but a cute one
and no. i'm not being a RAPIST either.

see.. I HAVE respect.
Na, Dongyi. i need to join that clique of yours


Oh. my sis is moving out..
or TRYING to by the 1st of Sept
so she won't have to give my dad $$$
I wonder.. How will it feel to be alone finally?
i mean.. ALL of my life we've shared a room.
I gave my sis the Feroda pic i had made for photo..
though my sis and i aren't close.. to day.. we do alot with each other
I'mma miss her messy ass.
:/ but as soon as she's gone. that old comp will be back down.
and i'll look into how much it'll cost to get a phopne jack RE- INTALLED into my wall
and i need a cell phone.
my mom DID prove a point.. so long as the shit calls and stores #'s WHY pay more

Reason: I wnat a pretty phone!
I'll pay the 125 bucks for the phone too
T-T damnit
i'll never get my ipod either.
*is too sleepy to chack for tpyos*

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[Friday, August 29, 2003|01:47 a.m.][Guileless Desire]te 5th wheel tv show

i read the second volume of Battle Royal the manga..B good shit. *loves her job for that*
DISCOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNT!
XD
anyways. work was aite..
that's about it
ecmplanet was being REALLY stupid all day today..
and mad people e-mails and said that their signs ddn't show up
so i had to link them.. and HOPE that ecompl;ent is working
ok.. enough of that
off to play THE ROMP
http://romp.com
G AND PLAY!
IT'S HIKLARIOUS

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[Thursday, August 28, 2003|03:30 p.m.][Guileless Desire]>< FUCK OFF!

ECOMPLANET SHALL DIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIEE
*STABS BURNS MAIMS KILLS ECOMPLANET*
fUCKIN UP MY LAYOUTS AND SHIT!
AND NO ONE CAN GET THEIR SIGNS EITHER.
><
*is really pissed about that

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[Wednesday, August 27, 2003|07:33 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Mac guy talkign to some people next to me.. @_@

Fansigns on my lj!
^_^v
Link for that is inthe upper left of this page.
go get yer stuff!
though.. i didn't get to upload all of them...
i gotta do that later when i get home

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[Tuesday, August 26, 2003|02:07 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

*is hungry and 50 bucks richer*
gonna buy my corsEt shirt thingy toda~y!
*jump jive skip prance*
and..
I'm PISSED OFF CUZ I COULD HAVE BEEN BACK FORM NYC BY NOW..
-_- damn you mother.
damn you atm card!
OH!
and NOW my mom is like. go with AT&T fo ryoue celle phone.. they have free ones..
T-T
but i want my Motorola T720! *chibi temper tantrum*
shit.. i don't mind spending the cash on it either
and i like verizon better.
I may get the Motorola V60.. IF it has a color screen
I WANT COLOR
and i'mma get my Miyavi Photobook come my next paycheck
I'mma be hella poor as my boy james would say.
shit..
Chris and I didn't hang out at all this summer
*feels bad*
and i didn't post about my aunt's health here.. because i'm lazy.
it's on my lj.. about 3-4 posts down if you wanna read it.

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[Monday, August 25, 2003|10:14 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Escaflowne Girl in Gaea dvd...


Miyavi sketch..
( and then some *coughCLICKMEcough*)

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[Sunday, August 24, 2003|02:12 a.m.][Guileless Desire]GTA songs...

I'm so amused right now
It could be for one reason or another....
Not that I give a shit though.
I see a statement being made..
Sorry darlings.. my space will NOT be a battlefield.
Oh.............. cryptic, ne?
*updated*
I'm this close to peeing myself with laughter *figure of speech folks*
I jsut saw something ELSE!...
Oh my my my....................... things need to be said abotuthis.. btu.. it's not my place.
as usual..it's my place to be the reassureer not the drama bringer..
Accept for that ONE time..and that was by accident.
*can see a whole bunch of drama about to be brewing*

yeah man.. typical. *shakes head sadly*

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[Sunday, August 24, 2003|12:55 a.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

First thing first...

PURAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA'S BACK!


*huggles lots*
DAMN woman....
I'm glad you're back though

Work was.. actually.. nice and quiet today... after teh stupid schedule mishap
Patrick ALSO was due in at 4pm..
And the SAME thing happned to him?
SEE?
I'm not senile or any of that shit
Wayne FUCKED UP!
big surprize, ne?
ANYHOW.. it seems Vivmamoot applied to my job too
XD
But dorky wayne s all like.. some lady put you down as a reference
and i'm like.. ?_? LADY? i know no ladies.. i only know girls.. who is it
It was Viv
*glomps Viv*
I miss her so much.
WE need to hang.
More than anyone else i know.. i NEED to hang with her.
I miss thouse days so much man.
T-T *crosses fingers*
got out early due to Pat needing to take the train to get home.
dull day all in all.


But now i'm amused..Joy is playing Grand Theft Auto 3
IT'S A HILARIOUS GAME!

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[Saturday, August 23, 2003|04:47 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

In the apple store
FUMMING MAD
Fuckin.. Wayne.. he messed up my schedule
i was supposed to work 4-close
TELL ME WHY EVERY FUCKIN MANAGER WAS LOOKING AT ME ODDLY WHEN I STROLLED IN AT 4
But I think nothing of it though.. and get in the back area to see when my break is
Then I see the fucking schedule..
><##
When I fucking called to see if he allowed the schedule change between Heidi, Jess and myself...
I ASKED him what my hours were for this week
He told me Thurs&Fri 6-close Sat 4-close
Now he's all like... I didn't say that..
So after nearly dying out of fear of being late, calling a cab
CANCELLING THE CAB when I saw my sis and her bf came home to pick up something for the wedding reception they were attending
AND getting a ride from them too..
I find out i wasn't due for 2 hours
I don't play fuckin mind games like this..
I KNOW WHAT HE SAID TO ME!!!@
And my cousin Joy is home alone..
Playing PS2 when we could have goone to H&m and look at shit
I tried calling home.. but she's prob ably in the basement playing PS2
-_-

FUCKERNESS!


I SHOULD go to the other mall.. but I won't risk being LATE for work..
So I gotta find some shit to do
The mall get real tired real easily for me...
You can only look at so many clothes, shoes, electronics...
No new shit is comming out until say.... Dec?
One of you LOCALS better come HERE and hang/amuse me
*IS HORRIBLY BORED*
Fuck this.. gonna go in work and read a mag and get some fuckin food.
><#

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[Saturday, August 23, 2003|01:39 a.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

Nyan.
Why do i feel like your b-day has passed..
*odd vibe time* @_@
crazy............
maybe it's your personality...?
damned beign up late.. and HUNGRY and tired.. and all giddy..
*glomps Joy*
nite people.

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[Saturday, August 23, 2003|12:12 a.m.][Guileless Desire]You Are The Reason - Boswich Gates

Ano.........

THIS

is the Shoxx issue i want
*OGGLES THE STOMACH*
He taunts me so.
T-T

*cough* Miyavi aside.. *like that's even possible*
^_~
Work was ok.
Today was Meg's last day.. T-T
I'mma mis her and her trendy spunky funny *insert positive adjective here* self
T-T
Her and Lan are the only girls around my age that I clicked with.


That aside.. saw this cute lil guy today..
He had to be like......*cough* a minor..
I'll leave it at that.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
He was so adorable!
And this other guy who works with us.. as a book guy..
He was in the break room..
On his KNEES writing his schedule!
ROWR!
Damn my self control *jk jk*
But he's so damned ADORABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
And then there is this other guy who's cute too.
But he's kinda short..
I think he's a lil bit shorter than me.
ANYHOW!
Work progresses.. I see both Niel AND henry in the Mac store.
I chicthated.. and made plans to get my Ipod.
v^-^V *POM*
Browse some other clothing stores on my way back.. got soem boba tea *mango!*
Then Meg's stalker comes in..
This creepy Punjabi guy....
I say creepy because.. she TOLD him she has a bf.. when she had one..
He's come in when she worked and chitchatted..B Innocent, ne?
How about..givingyout he 9th degree about why you're not at work ont he train?
Innocent , ne?
Well.. how about asking tyou to take a walk AFTER you told him you have a bf
DECLING the said walk invite from him
finding out he ASKED when you're working next.. AND leftB CCAME BACK to say bye to you..
Innocent, ne?
Get this,.. this guy CALLS to see if she left.. like 30 min after we were closed!
@_@;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

STALKER!



So before he called, she tells the head manager her situation..
She eventually got a police escort to her car.. aside from me..
*shakes head*
What happend to the old days when a guy just askes you for your #?
T-T
I'mma miss her. T-T

*sigh*
I bought Parakiss 1&2, and Demon Diary 1&2 today..FINALLY!
I love that series to PIECES!
Ai Yazaka is my other fave mangaka.. in a long line.. but she has an equal place
YEAH.. cuz reading snippets isn't fun when you can't FIND the volume you were on
luckily Mars hasn't sold out yet.
1-13 still in store. V^_^V
*stretch*
I want that mock corset shirt. T-T
I need to either get it TOMMOROW.. or wait till it comes on sale..
It's so expensive though... T-T


UPDATE:*12:47*
MY COUSIN JOY FROM TO IS HERE!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

And she brought gifts!
*prances*

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[Friday, August 22, 2003|05:01 p.m.][Guileless Desire] RANDOM APPLE STORE SHIT...

T-T
damend clotehs..
shopping is evil!!!
I've seen sone cute button down shirts that come with a tie..
and there is a red one, a white one, and a black one i want..
BADLY AND the 2 express shirts i want.. and now.. a nice suit i saw there too
because.. i'm getting old.. and i need atleast one suit.
T-T but atleast i have more hours this and next week
and DAMNIT! i can't find a red tubetop
cuz i have my black net top already..
I gotta wear the trini colors on Labor Day you know..
AND i see BAAF is THIS weekend.. T-T*SHIKU SHIKU*
DAMNIT! I'll only be able to go to BAAF on SUNDAY.. but then i'll run the risk of being all tired for J'OVERT
What to do?
I'm going to stick by what I said.. this year is a con-less year.
T-T *whimper*
and for all of this shit i want/"need" i need hours at work..
so yeah.. my nonexistant social life is plucking a harp somewhere right about now.
:/ and i only have NEXT WEEK to do stuff in the DAY
*scowls*
yeah.. so i gotta hit nyc's kinokunya and get that SHOXX issue with Miyavi on the cover..
rumor has it.. he's sans makeup!
btu he STILL looks good.. so that's a MUST have.. that and the arena issue. T-T
hopefully they have THAT one still
fuckin asahiya closing down!
><###

RANDOM NOTE: I can't write in japanese.. UNFAIR CONTEST! T-T
i want to participate.. but.. my japanese is way beyond poor...

so no participation for me. T-T
whatr ELSE should i lament about?
actually.. :3 i saw Ernest today at the busstop.
he hugges me and we chitchatted for a lil bit.
i'mma miss him when he goes back to school.
T-T
damnation!
i need a HIGH PAYING job!
maybe in hospital? i dunno...
anyhow.. i got about 45 min left. amy as well eat.

OH!
DAMN BEBE TOO!
THEY ALSO WANT TO DRAIN MY POCKET
T-T*SHIKU SHIKU SHIKU*

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[Friday, August 22, 2003|01:53 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Journey To A Star - Lemongrass

I just read something..
I am highly amused now.. *what else is new?*
;p
anyhow.. almost done designing my new layout..

Am I an Egoist?
I hope you don't get that impression..
*weak laugh*
But after reflecting on that mantal health quiz.. I'm mildly histronic
But I DON'T make shit up though.
Ther is no point to it anyhow. I'm a bad liar.. my DAD knows that..
So if i can't lie to my dad.. shit.. i can't lie to anyone

That aside.. IT'S FUCKIN HOT!
I took a nice shower this morning.. tell me why. i'm all funky now...
I'm about to take another shower again.
I hate this country.. it was all rainy..now it's all hot and humid
stupid continent!

I wish I was in Trinidad again.
On the beach.. eatin mangoes and shit..
But I'd be missing you guys so bad though.
So I gotta suck it up...

Meh.. I need to take pics soon.
Meg was all "OMG your hair is so cute!"
^-^ Meg is a sweetie! *waves to her and Patrick*
Her last day is today and Patrick works only weekends now.
I hope the new people they hire are cool.
Because Lan is leaving too. And that makes me sad
AND I don't watn to become "Mrs. Sharp"
ROFL!
Poor Meg.
he tells her.. like.. EVERYTHING!
And yeah. he was annoying me again last night..
*he closed with meg and myself*
he all was like.. dissin me INFRONT of a customer
>< not like.. OHHHHHHH SHE UGLY!
but he was making me look incompitent..
He's alwyas doing some shit like that. And it's pissin me off!
You don't tell a customer "Oh! She's been away for 2 days and she FORGOT how to make the drink."
How the fuck would ANYONE know that you need to hit single *cafe lingo.. * TWICE instead of DOUBLE for a DOUBLE expresso?
the Starbucks people didn't teach us that..
and he did it in front of this niiiiiiiiiiiiiice looking Italian guy
though Meg told me hesaid he didn't want whipped cream on his frap because it'd "make him look gay"
WHAT THE FUCK?
Shit like that makes you lose MAJOR points with me FAAAAAAAAAAST!
*scowls*
Anyhow.. Meg didn't know that we're supposed to hit single twice so yeah.. *flips him off*
Anyways..
We get ALOT of eyecandy comming in and out so yeah.. never a boring day

ok.. SHOWER TIME
imagine what you wish....
;p

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[Wednesday, August 20, 2003|04:20 p.m.][Guileless Desire]The End is Near - Headboard

Did a web cam of the cd..
Please pardon the scarf on my head..
That's "Wind down home relaxin'" Nikki..
*weak laugh*
Anyhow.. I'm to lazy to bring my lamp down..
yeah...
anyhow....
http://web.ecomplanet.com/LY2238/ServerContent/MyCustomImages/LY2238CustomImage3064618.jpg
http://web.ecomplanet.com/LY2238/ServerContent/MyCustomImages/LY2238CustomImage3073449.jpg
http://web.ecomplanet.com/LY2238/ServerContent/MyCustomImages/LY2238CustomImage308500.jpg
http://web.ecomplanet.com/LY2238/ServerContent/MyCustomImages/LY2238CustomImage3094195.jpg

and i got some other sign board thing.. but OBVIOUSLY it's a print of his writing..
and.. now i'm bored...
all'ya know where to find me.

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[Tuesday, August 19, 2003|11:22 p.m.][Guileless Desire]me.. sneezing.. ALOT

Aim is being REALLY stupid.
*grumbles*
I just turned my mattress and my allergies are all wonky..
*sigh*
I wanted to post pics of how my hair looks.. :/
and not the printer wants to DIE!
>_<#
NOT A GOOD NIGHT AT ALL!!

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[Monday, August 18, 2003|08:47 p.m.][Guileless Desire]MIYAVI_DVD_GEKOKUJYOU ^________________________^

awright!
No.. I'm not done watching the dvd yet..
#1 I can't make screen caps of it..
T-T gomen gomen
#2 HE'S TOO FUNNY!
#3 THE BACK UP SINGER IS HILARIOUS!!!
#4 UNPLUGGED *is on that part now*
Yeah man.. good times!
xD
My boy isn't just a pretty face now.. no no no..
He STILL can play a mean guitar!
DAMN..
I was blown away by the lil thing they did during the unplugged segment.
It was fuckin AWESOME!

But I didn't totally like the ENCORE performance of Girl's be..
*I did like the lil thing they did towards the end of it though.*
Yeah..
That's the one we ALL saw on our FAVE SITE..
*won't blow up spots*
But yeah.. he was all danced out by the time they got to that part anyhow..
Shit.. I'd be all tired too!

That aside..
It's a good buy!
I HIGHLY RECOMMEND IT!.. and he's hammin it up for the crowd.. as usual!
^-^ whew..
that didn't sound one bit fangirly now did it.
*biiiiiiiiiiiiiiidah*
;p
v^_^V *POM*

*update*
yeah.. another qualm of mine was how they TEASED by showing a weee bit of the Obladi Oblada clip
*shakes a fist at PS Company*
:/ I wanted to see it really badly.. ah well..
An upside was seeing the behind the scenes footage of when Miyavi arrived.. adn sound chscks.. blah blah
The commentary was funny too.
All in all.. well worth how much i paid for it.

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[Monday, August 18, 2003|05:02 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Piano Aquieu - Stars of the Lid

XD
gleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeb!

It's here!


*runs of to watch her precious dvd*




You are SHINYA. You are in love with Kaoru desperately.
You are SHINYA. You are in love with Kaoru
desperately.

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[Sunday, August 17, 2003|09:46 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Hell Bent - Kenna

ANIME DAY @ HENRY'S PLACE!
man.. i ahd fun..
bough us some pizza and shit.
watched gundam seed, green green, onegai twins,
some amvs and some like.. borderline hentai anime ova series
he didn't want to show it to me.. but i dont' give a shit!
like i've never seen hentai and porn before?!
*cracks up*
the show was crazy!
and i was laughing my ass off
that aside... i'm all full now... and sleepy.. really REALLY sleepy
and i need to change my layout...
i have a graphic in mind.. but.. i dunno....
but gundam seed is good so far..
saw some HEAVY yaoi potential already.. and that was ep 1!!!
and i'm REALLY REALLY REALLY lovin Kira's shirt
it's supposed to have red buckle thingies though.. not black..
http://www.geocities.com/gundamlegends/chara-mecha.jpg
the art took a lil while to get used too..
they had.. like.. pushed out faces in some of the scenes.. @_@
but aside form that.. ti was good.
LOVE the lil pissy gray haired boy.
he amused me alot!
ah.. ditty's personal slut boi! ROFL!

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[Saturday, August 16, 2003|02:17 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Yuugai no Tenshi - Pierrot

^^;; for got to put my Masao pic on my gallery page last night.
Yeah man.. Lez and I were talking about The Best and such..
and I kept buggin her to draw him.
Yeah.. I'm an uke MANIAC!
And I was drawing it off and on on my tablet while we immed..
mind you.. I'm not very good at drawing on a tablet

Masao

cuz the actual pic was eatin up space..
Hold on a sec... I HATE his voice.. *switches song*
Ah....
*is playing Super Drive - Zero Basement Mix from Gravitation*
Kirito's voice is too jarring for this early in the day..
imho
And sadly it's the ONLY song I have by them...
Though Dan told me Mad Sky was a good song.. but I can't stand his whiney voice..

AT ALL!


Now I have a headache..

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[Saturday, August 16, 2003|02:01 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Nijyuusai Kinen Nichi - Miyavi

Erm...............
I f you don't see a lot of posts here.. like.. everyday..
It's because I'm lazy and I'm posting on my lj.
I linked it a while back *ponts to navigation bar at the top of the page*
Just click the lil X's and you'll get pages..
Simple ne?

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[Friday, August 15, 2003|10:36 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Evergreen - Raphael *the pv though*

*deep sigh of relief*
Aya, Rice and Spidah are all ok and with power now..
Pura na is still MIA though.
:/
she's in TO too so yeah.. she should be ok..B WAI WAIIIIIIIIIII!
Rice is commin here.. but.. on a tour thingy..
it sucks because i won't see her.
t-t


Shout out to Mana!
She's pretty cool! adn she does a mean Miyavi cosplay!
WHEEEEEEE!
Mankin NYC connections!

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[Tuesday, August 12, 2003|04:49 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nada

^-^
Aya is back!
*prances around merrily*
we chitchatted last night and so on.
^-^ *is really happy*
and she liked the pic too.

ANYWAYS!
Work was ok today... Meg called out sick.
*hugs Meg*
Feel better lady.
Erm.... I had my brain picked by Howard.. our new district manager
It was odd... because I do like my job..
And the people are cool too..
To complain about little stupid things would be pointless.
*coughemployeeprocedurecough*
Or rather ONE employee..

Whatever man.
One day she'll get smart with the wrong customer.. or they she how she handles stuff.. and she'll get in BIG trouble for it
Not to say I'm wishing it to happen though.
0XD

Before that..my mom and I went to P-way/Middlesex to drop off my slide film
Wnet to Walmart to buy.. some.. things we needed... ^^;;;
I have to pick up my slides tomorrow actually.
Aite.
AFTER work.. i bought WENDY WILLIAM'S book.
I <3 her and her crazy self
I loved her show on KISS FM and I love her show even MORE now on WBLS
And my sis wanted the book anyhow... so I got it.
I read it at the bus stop.. and on the bus AND when I got here too.
It's very good!

And since I'm not home.. I don't have the link for her site.
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[Monday, August 11, 2003|04:09 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

><#
I'm so highly vexed.
my day was shot to hell...
thought I DID make thouse hair people wash my hair for free
First off, my mom is like.. come on. were going to talk to those hair people
I'm like.. ok. then she flips out on me for having her cd player..
blah.. I take my shit out.. batteries too and she gets it back
Then I go get ready.. by 9am I'm all set to go
She's on the phone with the insurance people about our roof anf basement
Then she's arguing with my sis and THEN she says I don't do stuff at home anymore.
WHAT THE FUCK?
EXCUSE ME!?!
COME THE FUCK AGAIN!?!?
Alot of screaming was going on at this point..
I'm like whatever and I go wait in the car.
We FINALLY leave at 11am.....><
And she decideds to go to Amboy to buy some hair
We get the braiding hair.. THEN she has to buy stamps.. we go to TWO FUCKIN POST OFFICESand in both the line was so long
Mind you I have class at 5pm.. so i'm estimating we get back by AT LEAST3pm.
we leave w/o stamps and head up the turnpike.. only to have my mom FORGET her shampoo AND her wallet.

Vexed isn't the word to describe how I was feeling at this point.
We take the next exit and get a lil lost in Rahway.. AND stuck behind a slow ass truck that stank
I wanted to hurt that driver so badly... words cannot convey how mad I was..
We get to Harlem w/o incident..
I SHOWED them the damage done to my hair..
the fuckin people..><
telling me.. Oh it must be chemicals
I'm like.. no.. my ahir was stressed by overprocessing AND tight ass braids
Fuck them all. ><
They called the owner and she agreed to my request to wash and treat my hair for free that day.
So I read my magazines and waited for my mom to finish getting HER hair done.
The fuckin woman doing her hair was so SLOW!!!!

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[Sunday, August 10, 2003|11:52 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Club Cielo Mega Mix

*biter laugh*
hmph.
I must be a fuckin fool...

that aside...
took pics with Kristen today..
NOTE: Jake Brown Rd. in Old Bridge.. is.. CREEEEEEEEEEEEEPY!
It's like.. 10 ranch houses.. all boarded up.. and a playground in the middle.
ALL deserted...though it looks like it gets SOME upkeep because it should have been overgrown by now
so we had our little theories on there..
I think I will research it and see what I find.

after taking some pics.. and being very VERY paranoid..we left
We went to some shore side housing development in So. Amboy.. tres posh!
We snuck into some house being built and took some pics.. and ran back to the car!
MANY MANY ILLIGAL THINGS WERE DONE TODAY! YAY!
But then.. when we were in some bay park thing.. the plague hit me..
I was..needless to say. unprepaired.
But Kristen saved me.. and after a lil bitmore agony.. we finished taking our pics and she drove me home.
Took a HOT showere and went to bed..
Got up at about.........10pmish... took some meds and now I'm ok.

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[Saturday, August 9, 2003|12:29 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

Ano...
spidah na.. my basement wasn't flooded.. it's jsut not damp proof..
in that.. some water seeps in the foundation/the walls below ground and makes it damp and icky
if it flooded.. this comp would SO be upstairs right now.
i got work in like... 3.5 hrs..
but i'm bored..and nothing is on tv.. and my dad is sleeping..*thank god! -_- he pissed me off big time today*
so.. i dunno.. should i go to the mall and then go to work?
or should i leave at 1?
meh. i dunno.. whaterver.

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[Friday, August 8, 2003|09:15 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Crazy Sunshine - the pillows

my other server is being stupid..
hence.. my cliques mostlikely will be up by sunday..
i added alot.. but when i went to put the pics up WHAM! a bib ol message saying they are down.
SO! I WILL get those codes up ! but.. mostlikely by sunday..
i wanted to avoid using my old server.. because.. i have ALOT onthere as it is.


in other news.. Yuki na, Hen, and Lez and Co. are all on their way/AT Otakon
I hope they have fun and i wish i could go.. but too damend far/expensive for me to hit dat shit in ONE day and come back home..
though i love anime.. HELLZ FUCKIN NO!
that's on the levvel of my dad goign to canada for the weekend...
or better yet when he DROVE from louisianna to CANADA in like.. a DAY!!

oh.. and my comp is int he basement again.. my si is a btich.. see my rant on my lj.
that aside.. i spent a LONG ASS TIME backin up.. practically my whole harddrive.. AGAIN..><
*sighs* i'm all tried now.. but i know i'mma be up late cleaning shit../
Oh! my chinese food is here.. .. so.. i guess i'm done *zooms off*

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[Friday, August 8, 2003|01:31 a.m.][Guileless Desire]

'hita-senei had a ilnk for a gravi fanfic archive page.
^_^ *is happy.. yet sleepy*
http://fiction.gurabiteshiyon.net/
yeah.. i was doing a search on my "name" and her fic page came up.
so i read it and go on to the rest of her page..
skimming fics i've read before.
hita-sensei and ditty can write their asses off!!

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[Thursday, August 7, 2003|06:12 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Miyavi.. yeah.. lot of songs...

*is in school*
Ah! So where was I?
Oh yeah...
BURNED myself with the iron today.
t-t
IT FELL ON MY ARM!
I now have a long burn on my arm now.
Mommy dropped me to work because the bus came WAY early.
Anyhow.. work went without event.
Oh! I got a buck tip.. AGAIN from some other lady.
She said I'm always nice and patient.
v^-^V *pom*
Then on my break I went to NINE WEST and ALDO
Lookecd at some boots... and basically.. I may.. MAY be getting myself 2 pairs of boots for the fall..
This is because my sister.. she got me SUEDE boots for my.. er.. 17th birthday.. I think?
All I remember is that she got them for my birthday..
I can't wear them that often though.. ESPECIALLY in the fall/winter..
All of the rain and snow would mess them up.
Hence, I need some boots.... I don't HAVE nice dress shoes so why not spoil myself a bit more?
The mp3 player and digicam can wait.
Oh yeah. Cat may buy my 35mm camera from me. ^-^ GLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEB!
I will miss it after color photo class...
Speaking of photography class.... We got our Portrait Studio negatves back yesterday.
Or rateher.. those who handed them in early.. *aka NOT Merna and myself.. we shared a roll you see... ^^;;;*
I think I'm going to scan them here and put them on my server....and MAYBE shrink it down on my comp at home.
Maybe...
I may be FORCED to don my surgical mask.. AGAIN... -_-;;;;
I forgot to mention.. my mom MADE me wear a surgical mask this morning when I wanted to check my e-mail! She MADE me wear it... _;;;;; yeah.... odd.
Those things aside... Jamie and I have been chosen to give a resentation on digital cameras for photogreaphy class...
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
Don't ask me why my ass was chosen...
I guess I'll be showing the editing aspects or something..
Meh.
Aite.. Gonna scan these pics!

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[Tuesday, August 5, 2003|11:29 p.m.][Guileless Desire]....*grumbling*

>< tried to do a recording..
it worked.. but took EONS to load..
deleted it.. gonna try again... eventually....
*scowls*

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[Tuesday, August 5, 2003|12:49 p.m.][Guileless Desire]???

shot the 4x5 cam yesterday..
that shit is HEAVY!!
i was beat byt he time i got home.. so i went to bed. hence.. i won't be on for a while.. lest i want to be sick.. AGAIN. T-T
so i gotta go home and make a hiatus page.. T-T
I TRIED to convince my dad into getting a phone line int he living room... cuz... yeah.. my comp MUST have mold in it by NOW!
cuz the basement is cool.. but NOT dry.. at ALL!
so meh.. i gotta get back to work.
i'm out.

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[Sunday, August 3, 2003|05:42 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Siren - Kenna

parents got home at 1pm
WAY earlier than expected..
i was cleaning my room and the like when i heard them pull up
my mom says ethan has grown taller and he talks now. ^_^
basically he was sayign HE wanted his hair cut when my dad was cutting joel's hair.
i miss ethan so much.
T-T
i really do. T-T
i don't feel like going out today.. i'm so sleepy and i got a whole BUNCH of shit to do
i wish my sis had her digi cam here.. i'd show you the MOUND of clothes on my bed
and it's all CLEAN too!
that's the scary part.
it's like ALL my clothes too... cuz i don't have alot.
ok ok.. it's all the clothes i LIKE/wear...
anyhoo... BEBE is selling a nice suit.. and the GAP had some nice pants.. but no jacket to go with it.
it was black with lil red and white stripes on it..
i didn't like the white one though.. i don't DO white
i have 2 pairs of white pants i have YET to wear.. they'll get dirty.. and stain..and then i'd never be able to wear them again. T-T

i fuckin want those 2 express shirts man!
but FUCK THEM.. + for ONE!
**flips dem de bird*
and NINE WEST is taunting me with their damend nice shoes and clothes
T-T *SHIKU SHIKU SHIKU*
meh.. gonna call hen to cancel.
ugh.. we're gonna have to do this after otakon i suppose.
i wish i could go man..... and STAY.. cuz allt hat travel will make my ass tired and cranky... and i know i won't enjoy myself.
i really think it's pointless to go for one day. and come home the same day..
if it was closer.. then yeah.. but that's fuckin far.

i need to take sewing classes also....
cuz i wanna learn.... AGAIN ^^;;;;;;;;;
maybe something at FIT or someshit...
but like.. in the spring though...
speaking of sewing.. i need to finish up my shirt.
t-t
IT'S BEING NEGLECTED!

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[Sunday, August 3, 2003|12:22 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Vexed & Glorious - Kenna

YO!
Trini man had this video.. an animated claymation one
i loved the song.. and i saw the video when sci-fi had a animated music video showcase show.
so yeah.. i tried to find the artist who sang it..
WHELP! i did! *niko niko*
so HERE'S the link if anyone is interested..
well.. it's a link to the samples f the cd..
just chop off the latter part of the link and you'll get the main site

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[Sunday, August 3, 2003|02:02 a.m.][Guileless Desire]none...

Pura... You sexy beast!
Thank you for the sign!
I'll upload it tomorrow.. erm.. latter today.
^^;;

Ugh..
Work sucked kinda today..
click below text

Work and after work.. -_- not in a good mood*

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[Friday, August 1, 2003|07:32 p.m.][Guileless Desire]get backers... ^_^ AKABANEEEEE! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! HOT HATED MAN!

ljed earlier today..
um..
OH YEAH!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDm
SENT OUT MY MONEY ORDER FOR THE MIYAVI DVD TODAY.. AND BOUGHT SOME FILM TOO..
i didn't however go to nyc..
it's all ick-moot outside
most likely i'll go the week after next since i have SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much fuckin time
henry is so lucky.. he's going to otakon too
i told him to bring me back some doujinshis(?)
yeah.. i dont think there IS a plural form for doujinshi..
i guess it's kinda like mouse i guess..
blah.. but i doubt he'd GET me any.. sin'ce i LOVE YAOI
so yeah.. HIGHLY DOUBTFUL
man.. it looks like my chances of going to ANY con this year are nonexistant
cuz shoujocon is out..
WHY the FUCK did they have to move it to RYE ny?
WHY?
AND rumor has it AX is NOT joining up with BAFF like last year..
that makes me sad.
T-T
*shiku shiku shiku*
yeah man.. i watched more anime cds today man...
hanaukyo maids OWNZ!
ok ok.. too many boobies for me.. sometimes.. but it;s a cute show..
and they aint no HUMONGOUS boobies or anything.. so that is a relief.
and get backers is on now.
ohhhhhhhh!
omg they animated Akabane soooooooooooooooooo well!
*wiggles with glee*
aite..
i saw some things i want to buy.. AGAIN..
so i gotta request more hours.. AGAIN
*melts at those Express shirts and bebe panta AND gap pants and shoes she wants*
OMG! I WANT THEM SO BADLY!@!!!!
AND FUCKIN NINE WEST BOOTS TOO!
*keels over*

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[Friday, August 1, 2003|12:51 a.m.][Guileless Desire]RahXephoin.. cuz i'm half watching it..

-_- it ate my fuckin post!
><#########
aite. donna has a hot son.. and hot.. meaning.. HOT AS TEH FUCKIN SUN!
peter may have a gf. i saw him with . a korean(?) girl today before class..
i like his hair still. i wanna mess it up so badly
um................ had my midterm today....
blah
we learned more abotuthe 4x5 cam todayBBR in a good way.. but it's HUGE AS FUCKIN HELL
so i know i'mma hate using it for a hot min. before i love it.. B but i won't love it THAT fuckin much..
it's like 00!!
that's my FALL TUITION!!
FUCK DAT!
erm.. yeah.. that's it.

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[Thursday, July 31, 2003|12:14 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Soca Bhangra -Shammi Salickram

*content yet tired sigh*
we had portrait studio today!


guess who brought mad clothes and shit........

*innocent whistle*
we went fuckin

WILD


boob grabbin shots..*coughchristencough*
*CLOTHED* you pervs
Cigar to mouth shouts....
i mean.. i had the cigar, fan. fedora, tie,cuff, jacket..
i had MAAAAAAAAD shit.. and MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD clothes to wear

We had alot of fun though.. but i hope our pics came out ok though.

^^;;;;;

and that fuckin bitch bussdriver.. she came mad late today.. so i decided to WALK to work..
not far.. easy walk.. IF i wasn't luggin my bookbag
Lan was pissed off.
it was funny.. cuz i get IRKED by that to sometimes
erm... what else.... OH the same bitch bus driver who made me GET TO WORK LATE.. made me get to CLASS late too..B i was fuckin waiting in metuchen for an hour.
*deep scowl*
but my highlight would HAVE to be class.. since work was uneventful.. and i had a blast with lan today.
*hugglesnuggles lan*B you mah girl yo!

Tickets tot hat concert.. *PNC* go on sale.. sunday.. it hink.. but i dunno.. i may go with christen though.. or just the central park one..
i dunno yet

AND!OMFG!

SOEMONE.. i dunno WHO it was.t ehyt ook out MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD manga at work today..
*is excited* omg.. and it wasn't only TOKYOPOP manga either..
I WANT ONEGAI TEACHER NOW!!
*mini temper tantrum*
and some others that looke dhot.
and i wish i had satillite.. T-T FLCL is gonan air soon.. i LOVE LOVE LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVE that fuckin show!
NAOUTA is like.. such a pussy man!
but i STILL love him, ESP cat ears naouta
and haruko!ROFL!@ SHE'S FUCKIN PSYCHO!
and japanese fans.. are FUCKIN SCARY!
*COWERS IN FEAR*

meh... sleepy...
i'mma try NOT to go to bed at 2am..............

@_@
and *SNIFFLE* my poor neglected lemon....
i haven' worked on it since .. @_@ i forget.. like.. sunday or some shit....?_? i forget
and XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD MY FAM IS GOIN AWAY FOR THE WEEKEND...

:/ not like *I* got a fuckin shit to do though while they are havin fun in canada..
but my dad BURSTS into my room at fuckin... 5:30 am to bitch about some stupid shit!
*twitches* i went to bed at like.. 2 am mind you..
so my eyes are all burning and shit.

but they leave in like.. 5 hrs so yeah....!

aite.. this is gettin long.. and i'm gettin sleepy
nite.

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[Wednesday, July 30, 2003|12:36 a.m.][Guileless Desire]nada

i had an accident at work..
i was washin some dishes... and i came up too quickly..
BANGED my fuckin browbone into taht metal railing..
wayne hears it..and i'm like.. gritting my teeth..
that shit HURT!
-__- damned bad luckyness.

that ASIDE!!
FUCKIN! I WASN'T WORKING AN 8HR.. SO I ONLY GOT A 15 MIN BREAK!
*must kill wayne*
FUCK! i want my 30 mins!
>< HOW can i read the sexxxxxxxi fashion mags from like italy *ok ok..not read THOSE* and london in 15 min?
i take 15 min to eat *A* bagel and *A* jones juice

OMG! did i mention thay are so fuckin GOOOOOOOD!

yesh. .. i'm a food expert!
i love the "creamy" looking ones
that fuckin grapefruit PIECE OF SHIT ™ tasted like SHIT!
BLECH BLECH PATUUUUUUUUI! *custom sound effects*
^^;;
erm.......... what else..B OH!
i inked more of the PORNY fanart..
worked some more on my Miyavi fanart too.
^_^ ISH SO NIIIIIIICE!
though it sucks when i'm not home.. cuz.. i dont' have ANY reference pictures
mainly for the tattoos.. T-T
and i won't have a free day till friday..
@_@ *eyes roll to the back of her head*

also.. YAY for 'Manuel!
good luck there guy!

and yeah.. YOU got an audience...
no points gained for participation...
JK JK!
meh..
though i'm glad you're feeling a wee bit better.. :/

and damn. MAD freash meat.. .. like..young guys.. playing basketball at school today!
i had to keep my hormones in check as i took action shots..
B so yeah.. become a photographer!
you can take pics of good looking people!
>x3
speaking of pics. i got the b/w trinidad pics today.. or rather. my mom picked them up..
fuckin 40 bucks for TWO roles of film!
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAR! *mauls photo people*
LEACHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES!
¬_¬
aite....
off to bed.. got work at .. T-T 10 FUCKIN AM!
and lj is being a bitch..
and i wanna get my hair done over..
this shit is STILL hurting ...though in different spots now..
how annoying
blah.. more about my bus ride home.. later.. hopefully..

UP-FUCKIN DATE!


UTTER.. OMFG! I CAN'T EVEN PUT INTO WORDS HOW IDIOTIC THIS IS!
fan BAN!
*IS FUMING MAD* ARGH! OMG!
and yes.. that is me commenting...

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[Monday, July 28, 2003|03:29 p.m.][Guileless Desire]

>< FUCKIN MENLO POST OFFICE DIDN'T HAVE ANY INTERNATIOAN JAPAN MONEY ORDERS!!
#@EASRDGEWRQYWEUHYSRYYWEQ%^#$%
I'M PISSED BEYOND PISSED!!!


went to metuchen post office!
*GLOMPS THEM TIGHT*
I LOOOOOOOOOVE YOU GUYS!!
OMG! They actually had them. ^-^
but it was 71 bucks though. :/ neer.....
so meh.. got my shit.. gotta mail it tomorrow.
GLOBAL PRIORITY BAYBEEEEEEEEE!
AND I STILL gotta cash my check.

nyao. spidah na! ficcy desu!!
was that it?.. ifit was it's good.

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[Sunday, July 27, 2003|11:51 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Sunrise on Fujijama - Lemongrass

WELL SHIT!
HE COULD OPERATE ON ME *ANY* TIME!
*evil laughter*
rumor has it he always wanted to be a doctor ya know..
well. if he never got into music that is.
kooooooooooooooookie!

anyways.. work was.. well.. work.
;p
ebony *my lil cousin* and lisa.. *my sis* came in and spent some time at b&n yesterday

ebony was like "What DO you do exactly?"
? *insert facefault and MEGA sweatdrop here*
so i wa slike.. i do everyting those guys were doing behindt he counter.
and i saw Joanne!
OMG! SHE'S LIKE MY HOMEGIRL FROM ELEMANTARY HIGHSCHOOL!
we live in the same hood and shit.. but...
^^;;; i suck at keeping in contact with anyone...
*cough*
that aside... erm.. patrick was reading some "Filipinino" *snickers* magazine
ok ok.. it was calle filipina..something-or-the-other
and he all had me read an anti drug ad.. THAT WAS TOTALLY IN TAGALOG!
T-T I can't speak spanish w/o sounding like a tourist.. so needless to say... i sucked...
but we were cussin each other out though.
ans saying some crazy shit
good times!

and i forgot ALL taht i RE-LEARNED last night too...
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;; ah well.. i'll ask him to teach me again
and Niel came in too..and we talked about my webpage idea.
T-T
he's going to cali..
and i'm sad.
i'mma miss his crazy pervy ass

AND!

sadly.. it seems my chances of goigng to canada are SLIM TO NONE NOW!
Carolyn can't work next sat cuz then she's be over her 40hrs per week..
and i left Wayne a note saying i'd even come in on my "holy day" to work.. and even monday SO LONG AS i got Sat off..
but he REALLY needed me that sat. T-T
POXATION! T-T
T-T
this FUCKIN SUX SO MUCH ASS!
but.. i'll be home alone..
*sigh* i wish i had more of a life..
i'd be clubbin and shit too
since i got friday and sunday off...
>< FUCK FUCK FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!
and i canclled my anime screening today..
i was exhusted.. and i was kinda hoping i'd be working today..B but hen's asleep...
-_- so meh. i'll call him later and tell him

and a shout out to Sunnie.
yeah man. i read your blog.

Peace out.. gonna go get some food and go back to bed and finish paradox already..
*is opn.. like 130 or some shit*..
ACK!
Fuckin humid today man..
i wish my dad opened the pool..
dumb ass man
-_-####
v^-^V POM!

OH!
and i had a dream and Rice-o was in it..
i forget what it was about mostly.. but .. odd..
^^;;

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[Saturday, July 26, 2003|10:04 a.m.][Guileless Desire]LoveRain Type 7 - Rice

anyhoo.. i was pooped when i got back home last night.. fell asleep at like 11pm
o_< CRAZY!
ah.. where was i?
oh yes..
so we left the apple store and headed to book off
T-T see me wail and moan at the loss of asahiya bookstore
see me fume and gripe about book off NOT having any yaoi..*ok ok.. they had a chi-ran book but i had that already*
see me BITCH AND MOAN about them not having any copies of Arena 37
and..
i gto a bento box and some candy from the food store next door to them.
i was soo tempted to buy some sushi..but i got the fried sea food bento instead
it has fish, shrimp and lobster..
and DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!
IT HAD THE LIL PLUM THINGY INTEH RICE! KAWAAAAAAAAI DESUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!
i didn't want to eat it .. it looked so nice.
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;
anyhoo.. ry is like.. er....... lets go to Mc Donads..*i guess he's not adventurious like me*
so he gets a chicken salad as i fight up with my chopsticks with the rice
cuz i can eat like.. big pieces of stuff with them.. but i ALWAYS suck when i try to take up the rice
blah he like eats ALl; the chicken and is about to throw away his salad.. i'm like. ... -_- O_O GIMME THAT!
so i eat it with my bento.. and i got an oreo mc flurry too. *usually likes butterfinger ones*
the damned spoogies didn't HAVE butterfinger. ><
that aside.. we go back to grand central and head to little italy.. cuz it was near that place i saw boba tea at..
this was around like.. 6pmish
TELL ME WHY!OMFG!
they were closed. T-T
I WAS LOOKING FORWARD TO HAVING MANGO BOBA TEA.. AND THE SHIT WAS CLOSED!
T-T
so we decided to go home..
cuz we did ALOT of walkin around.. i mean.. we went PAST nyu.. and all the way down to wall street... and like.. the city hall park and shit.
@_@
but it's alot closer than it hoguh it was though.
^_^ i even took him by FIT TOO
and he calle dhis 'Crombie crush to set a time for their date thingy..B so i was like awing him and such...
i'm really happy for him too. ^_________________^
he's so adorable!
he was all nervious and shit too.
i'm like,.. just got ot he movies and then coffee after or something.
i dunno how these things work./
so he left Colby.. yeah.. like the cheeze.. he laft him a voicemail
i hope ry doesn't go like.. crazy over colby not calling like RIGHT away...
my neko is sensative you see.
ANYHOW!
whew... so we get back to journal sq.. ry offers to drive me home.. YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
so we walk form journal sq to his house..B THIS BOY DOES NOT..I REPEAT.. DOES NOT LIVE INT HE GHETTOO his area islike.. queens and shit.
though i was amused to see like 5 west indian groceries though

XD ROTIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!


so we get to his house.. and his mom had the car.. so we wait for his mom..
i was like.. sprawled on his bed.. *since i was all full of food and drink* watching spiderman while he was on his comp
his room is pretty nice. and he's like OMG it's sooooooooooo mesy
lol no no dear boy. it's NOT messy.. my SISTER is messy. T-T
so then his mom gets home at about.. 10ish.. and i say hi.. a bit.. oddly.. i was laughing
and then i told him that his mom may not be worring abouthim for a while since she saw us come oput of his room together... ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
and i feel kinda bad though
cuz i nevfer did call chris to meet him or anything
we were too busy trying to FIND that damned apple store
and OMG! tell me why we were like ONE street off from finding it too. *holds head*


that aside..
T-T damn. you had a bad luck day didn't you there guy?
that sux.
i hope you're feeling better ok?
*hands him an ice pack*


and that was my day.
^_^..
oh.. and i didn't get my photo paper.. OPPSIES!
ROFL!
they closed at 2pm.. WTF, right?
so i guess it wasn't to be

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[Friday, July 25, 2003|03:39 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing...

XD XD!
I' M IN "THE" NYC MAC STORE WITH RYAN.
OMSHIT!
THE AMOUNT OF WALKING WE DID TOI FIND THIS PLACE..
WE WALKED FROM CANAL STREET TO SOHO, NOHO.. AND *BACK* TO CANAL.. ALL THE WAY DOWN TOWALL STREET!
*IS EXHAUSTED A MOOT*
BUT WE'RE HAVING FUN.
OGGLING GUYS AND SUCH.
BUGGIN OUT
BUT MEH.. I'M GONNA HEAD TO BOOK OFF TO GET SOME MANGA..
MY MONEY ORDER CAN WAIT TILL MONDAY
AND WE BROWSED MANY STORES TOO.
LIKE A/X, EXPRESS. LOUIS VITION.*sp*. * WAAAAAAAY TOO MANY STORE TO LIST*

btw..
I GOT MY CUFF!
XD IT'S BLACK WITH A SILVER MESH MIDDDLE
XDDDD AITE AITE.. GTG.. BLOG LATER.
<3 NIKKI

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[Friday, July 25, 2003|12:57 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Kagarra site songs.

OMSHIT!
i was on the ps company site.. and damn.. some interesting songs were playing
i guess it was samples of the new stuff for each artist under their lable
i heard kara and kagarra..
XD I LOVE THE ARTWORK FOR THEIR NEW SINGLE!
and the pv clip was pretty good too
i like that song.
and hanamuke too
i like them.. so far anyhow..
they sound pretty good too
^_^ WHEEE!
and OFCOURSE Miyavi's new song clip came on
my comment is not needed..

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!


ok ok. i couldn't help that one
*niko niko*
anyways!
yeah.. i think i'll be giving some of these people a ear soon

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[Thursday, July 24, 2003|10:49 p.m.][Guileless Desire]SHOULD be LoveRain Type 4.. but i can't recive the file!

First off.. YOU sayin you fat.
pffffffft.
you aint fat.
do some crunches and you'll have some nice ass abs

and i need to link up you ,you trini man ,you ,andyou.

class went fast today.. since i had my prints done already. W00T!
ig ot a b on my solarazation project
i wanted to re-mount the pics.. and such.. cuz the other two were crooked.. the mounting tissue showed a tiny bit..
*is anal about her prints*
can ya tell?
bah. that's it really.
oh.. and i think peter has the nicest FUCKIN HAIR!
I WANNA MESS IT UP SO BAD
JSUT RUMPLE IT UP!
>xD MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

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[Wednesday, July 23, 2003|10:34 a.m.][Guileless Desire]football ps2 game...

Miyavi's dvd came out today.
T-T -><- close to getting it......
i need to go to the post office ANYHOW!
*needs to buy an international money order..

¬_¬ JOYGASUM!

ANYHOW!

Your other WAS NOT supposed to be bleated b-day gift...

damned far ass places in nj!
DAMN THEM TO HELLLLLLLLLLLLL!!
message front:
message back:
pic


I REFUSE to SCAN the CARD!
i'll give it to Rochelle or something.. but i REFUSE!
IT WOULDN'T BE FAIR!

*hugs da card giver*
ruv you sweetness
*molest nibble*

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[Tuesday, July 22, 2003|05:33 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nada..

O_O
ALLTHIS FUCKIN RAIN!
>_
work was good today. ^-^
saw some hot guys. but they kept disappearing on me.
poot
T-T
OH! and if Caribanna is NEXT week sat.. i MAY be able to make it after all..
i'd have to switch though..
:/
but i wanna go.
T-T

that aside..
i left my most recent Miya fanart at home
*wails and flails*
i was gonna scan it. *pout*
it was so nice!
but thank GAWD i left it home.. all this fuckin rain.
-__-

BUT!!!!
i did scan her OTHER b-day gift..
cuz i dunn WHEN i'll see her to GIVE it to her in person..
neer.. *pokes her*
the problem is though.. it's a BIIIIIIIIIIIIG ass file.. so i gotta scale it down once i get home
and it has a lil hand written message on it too
and i guess some of it is .. void?..
?_?;;;;;
since i already got and spent/deposited my second paycheck

bah!
AND SPIDAH!
T-T i dunno how yur hting will be delivered..
it's what. almost 3 months since..
i feel awful.. but i did try...
i'mm about -><- close to scanning and e-mailing it.. T-T

oh!
and i LOVED that fic btw!
it was so cute
YOU have to draw some artwork miss spidah!*poke poke*
*shouldn't be talking*
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; aheehee....
i didn't forget.. i gotta read bloodlines again so i can draw them properly.

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[Tuesday, July 22, 2003|01:25 a.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing

my head hurts ALOT!
i got cornrows in my head now.. T-Tv
HURT LIKE FUCK!
cuz they are tight
went to harlem to do it with my mommy
lol.. those people are characters
this barber guy was like.. he HATES when ugly ass girls dress and act like they are DIMES.. when they are FUCKIN UGLY!
i hate that too... :/
and the ugly ones have the worst attitudes.. and are so selfabsorbed
and the other hairdresser was like you can find a nice not so pretty girl.. blah blah
and the barber was like.. but i wouldn't go out in public with her
and my hairdersser thought i was 15!
FUCKIN 15!!!
i was like.. O_< er.. i'm 20
then she asks me if i have kids and i'm like.. HELLZ NAH!
left at about 4pmish.. drove home... some bitch flipped my mom pff so i flipped her back
skanky HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOE
anyhow..
got to class LATE due to some traffic.. that had no real cause to it ><
my damen dfilm i shot sunday night didn't show up at all
><################
so Christen and i were gonna take pics..
BAD idea
it was POURING OUTSIDE tonight
but we HAD to get the pics done though
so we go to new brunswick train station.. and take some pics..
TELL ME WHY!
*holds head*
two guys get off the train.. and one is FUCKIN DRUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUNK OFF HIS ASS
he can't even dress himself properly
and christen askes him for a ciggie.. and he gives her the one he has in his mouth.
by this point.. i'm thinkin oh that's her friend.
so she's all like.. i duno if you got herpies or something..
and i'm crackin up
but the guy keeos pestering her for a light
and then they leave,..
the drunk.. OH! i forgot to mentio0n he tore his shirt off too.. adn tried to give it to us @_@
well the drunk one leans in on me to give me a hugh and a kiss on the cheek..
and i'm like.. meh? @_@
then they go downstairs and some commotion is going on
they started beef with a black guy
....

aite.. i'mma got o bed.. my ehad is killin me
so more on this some other time.

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[Sunday, July 20, 2003|04:37 p.m.][Guileless Desire]some 50 cent song AGAIN! *glares at her lil bro*

*holds head*
if i hear G-UNIT ONE MORE FUCKING TIME!
OMFG!

that aside...
talked to ryan, megan and spidah yesterday
pura too but breifly. ^^;;;;;;;;
and i dunno what i'mma do..
i'm not gonna be all.. IN YO FACE and shit.. ya know...
*holds head* i have a headache again

anyhoo. i gotta make sure i can go to my anime screening on sunday..
and nyc later THIS week
i'm really contemplaiting calling out next sat...

HIGHLY CONTEMPLATING IT!
but i dunno..
:/
i really dunno...
i mean.... i wanna see you guys. *too lazy to link all'ya*
and i wanna hang with Joy..
T-T but this is my job man..................
T-T
i dunno about alot of things anymore

stress again. but not as bad as it was BEFORE i went to trinidad..

my auntie marva.. the one who had the stroke.. she may have an incurable disease.. *chews lip*
she's not tellin no on what she has though..
but some have guessed already..

i mean.. i'm not really effected yet..
i love my aunt.. but death.. its like.. NORMAL for me to deal with now
i guess the whole joel and ethan thing
but meg and i were talkin.. she has alot of things to deal with too
she seemed kinda.. i dunno odd when i said i EXTRACATED my dad out of my life..
but i explained..
and i even told her to read my lj too

i wanna go and sleep actually...
but i have astuff to do..
like read spidah's story.
^-^V
yeah i printed it out.. so i'mma read it and post my views on it somewhere....
but after a nap or some food.. i dunno

i hope you guys are safe and sound though

and riceo.. you're not a perv.
everytime i drive past people's houses.. i wonder how many of them are fuckin at that very moment.
it does nothing for me.. but i dunno.. it's kinda like.. wondering where all of these people are going.. ya know?
okies.. off to nap.. or eat.

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[Friday, July 18, 2003|09:07 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Gariben Rock - Miyavi

SPIDAH!
OMG! my hotmail!
ROFL!
WOAAAH! i have it on exclusive mail list only.
i added you on my YAHOO mail.
meh.
i'll add you to my hotmail too
i need to use it more anyhow..
only my MOM sends me stuff on hotmail..
@_@;;;;;;;;;;;
that aside..
ig ot my fedora form Arden B. for like 32 bucks..
TRUST ME!
had i not been haisty i COULD have found a NICER more CLASSIC looking one online..
so you may have to look at some ska sites or something..?
zoot suits etc etc..
or ask lez.. though i doubt she'd remember.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;


GOOD NEWS!
I FOUND MY PENDANT..
^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
now.. if a chain falls off you'd chack your CLEVAGE right?
i did that... no pendant
so i tore my room apart looking for my precious pendant
went with my mom , sis and bro to do some work up at my aunt's house
came home and wanted to take a bath..
ROFL!
IT WAS IN MY BRA LIKE.. BY THE CURVE!
EASILY unseen when checking my clevage.
i'm so happy!
i thought i was going to cry.. seriously
i'm not big on jewlery now...
and my mom bought it for me in 97 when we went to Trinidad for carnival
it not only represents my star AND sun sign.. and my personality...
but it was something i loved from my mom.
and though i had jewlery before.. gold jewlery.. i never really liked it much..
so yeah.. i was in a funk today until i found it
my head was hurting and i REALLY wanted to cry

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[Friday, July 18, 2003|09:34 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Scent of Sweet *remix* - The Pillows

*gapes in awe*
HE'S STOLEN MY SOUL!

i have seen the miyavi and loose pics..
OMFUCK!

OK.
I WANNA BE THAT DAMNED CAT!
>XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
pervi nikki nekochan ne?
SO ADORABLE!
GO HERE to see them.
damn him and his infectios smile
*licks him*
he HAD to have a kitten didn't he!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
DAMN. LOOKIN SEXXXXXXXXXXI!
ok ok. no sexi but fuckin adorable right?

*coguh* lusting and creaming aside..
*sees some cringe and go ew.. and PROPTLY flips them the bird*

ANYHOW!
YOU got a new layout. and YOU and YOU!

ineed to work on something... i dunnowhat.. but i'm gettin bored.
^^;; *should e doing photography homework

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[Friday, July 18, 2003|08:33 a.m.][Guileless Desire]Shell - Bana

bad news.
i CAN'T go to TO for Caribanna
i have work the saturday and class ont he monday.
the thing is usually my dad drives up friday and drives home sunday/monday

THIS OFFICALLY SUCKS FUCKIN SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH! ><#########

T-T and i was lookin forward to it too.
i was planning on hangin with Eri, pura and riceo *pouts

fuckin sucks!

was tired as all hell wheni got home from class yesterday
just checked my e-mail and went to bed
AND to add to how fucked up things are.. i don't have a check for this week.
and i already deposited on of 'em too

>< GRAAAAAAAAH!
and i had that odd loosing teeth dream again.. i lost 3.. but it was like 2 where in one spot..
and i was at some kind of show thing and some old woman stepped on and broke one...
and some security guard made me some chai to soak my teeth BUT HE LEFT THE TEA LEAVES IN IT..
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!
and one of the teeth stayed in.. but when i spit the leaves out it was GONE.. @_@
and then i woke up...
freaky.....

and i WAS gonna go see Pirates of the Caribbean.. but no check= no on hand cash.. and i HATE HATE HATE using my mac card in the mall.

meh.. but i'll probably wind up doing so anyhow sine i'm off till tomorrow and then working tuesday and next sat..

hm,.... what else?
OH! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
we played "where are you FROM FROM" with peter, martain and the other guy..
i forget his name.. ^^;;;;;;;;;
peter is korean, martain is taiwanese and the other one i phillipino
^-^ martain is so cool though. peter too
they helped me solarize some pics.. XD
and for fun i mde some portrait pics like that too.. but i'm too lazy to put them up.
hm... i gotta call Lan to see if she wants to go to the movies still.. i didn't get back to her yesterday.

and safe traves Lez and Co.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE carry bug repellant!
@_@ those 'squitos will eat you all ALIVE!
*has done the camping poconos thing with family already*

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[Wednesday, July 16, 2003|10:28 p.m.][Guileless Desire]TRINI TO DE BONE! - David Rudder

I OWNZ J00!
check it!
i switched my shift to 10-4 rather than 12-6 becuase i had Photo 2 tonight
a food order came in at about 10 am.. a LARGE one
guess who sorted through all of it.. ALONE
*dainty cough*
i'll give you one guess
^-~
yeah man.. heftin boxes.. going in the freezer..
MOI!
tho it sucked cuz.. when i left...it was starting to get busy..
some author lady was doing a book signing..
the damned bitch wanted 800+ ITTY BITTY pieces of plain cheezecake
>< thank GOD i didn't have to cut it. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
anyhoo.. though i left AN HOUR early to get to school for 5 pm.. my bus was a wee bit late... and i missed the 5:30 bus to school
POXATION!!!>_<
so i arived at 6pm..
i was shading int hat pic i WAS gonna scan.. >< but since i got to school at 6 pm.. the lab was closed.. GRRRRR!
i guess maybe later on *sigh*
though some GHETTO ASS GIRL was like "YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! DAT'S HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT! U DREW DAT?"
and i was like yeah.. ^^;;;;
then her 2 friends crowd around..
lets just say.. they thought it was a guy and a girl... and not Mikkey and Toki
*weak laugh*
gut i like drawing mikkie pretty adn semi dainty.. not like WOAMN but... not ruggad like Toki
blah.. i'm too lazy to work on the kiss thing i've BEEN doing for MAAAAAAAAAAAAAD months..
though i was "refining it at the bus stop
i like it.. but ugh.. time consuming
OH OH! and i asked the opera girl who likes anime *who has a friend who lives near otacon* if she liked yaoi
we had the same break so we chitchatted and i sketched and she looke at my book
*^-^*
anyhoo.. got to class. and WHITEY is my prof.. AGAIN!
SUGOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOI! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
and.. there is this guy pete in my class.. he may be a neko.. i dunno..
:p
Marco.. aka NOAH aka MOSES.. lol *FLOOOOOOOD!* is in my class again too
and i got a ride home from jessica.. she's pretty cool

i can't wait to do portraits again
OH.. *calls random firend's name out*
:3
ruv you all!

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[Wednesday, July 16, 2003|12:34 a.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing...

I was looking at land to buy in Trinidad wtih my mom before i called up Lez to chit-chat
I was so bored tryign to convert TT$ to US$ AND sq. ft into lots AND acres
my head was spinning.
called up jan, candice,pj and lez though
^-^. thoguhi don't like talkin ont he phone much..
i dunno.. i like to LOOK at people when i talk i guess. :/
so.. this all boils down to.. WHY THE HELL would i want a cell phone?!!?

why?
BECAUSE! because i can finally afford a HOT lookin/workin one. ^-^

Ah.. what to do?
i'm -><- CLOSE to buying that Miyavi dvd too... but i don't know what region my dvd player is..
:/
that aside.. i bought TWO new magazines today..
a photoshop one...
AND a how to make a professional music video magazine.. with "FREE" DEMOS!

can you say royalty free music?
*fuu fuu fuu*

damn though i gotta remember to bring that drawing to scan tomorrow
i know atleast TWO people will like it very much
^_____________________________________^
tho i'd LOVE more than anything in the world to give them the original.. *because i ruv you so much*
it's #1 two per one page..
and #2 ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR FUCKIN MIND!?!!?
i can't give my stuff away like that
i learned the hard way. T-T
and what would i have for my portfolio? T-T
cuz..i can't send it to you guys PHYSICALL w/o a place to SNED it to.
:/
but if ya ask really nice. i can part with it. but let me scan it first

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[Tuesday, July 15, 2003|08:48 p.m.][Guileless Desire]

i)! *how i feel.. often*
߂! *how i am.. often*

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[Tuesday, July 15, 2003|08:23 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Replica - DuEle Quartz

got up early.. got up late.
cramps suck.
got up at 3am.. in EXTREME PAIN!
wobbles/crawled to the shower.. but i let my sis in first.. took a hour long steaming shower..
that eased the pain some..-_-
THEN i felt nasious. T-T
ran to the kitchen for some water
went back to bed..
guess what time i woke up at?

11:00 AM!!!
i was supposed to be in work for 10:30..
can you say.. FUCKERNESS?!?!?!
so i'm runnin around.. making some herbal tea.. and a bagelso i can take my PERSCRIBED *tis true* 600 mg IBPROUFEN!!
crazy, ne?
myshit is crippling
anyhoo. call work... thankfully Wayne *mah boss* wasn't comming in today.. so i let donna know something came upa nd i'll be in shortly
too ANOTHER shower.. begged my mom to press my t-shirt
i arrived at work 11:20.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;

oopsies?

ANYHOO!
GUESS WHO I SAW AT WORK TODAY?
PJ!

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
but i was putting the trash together

Tres elegante, ne?
*big traes* T-T
i gcouldn't even hug him hello or nuffin. T-T
so we chitchatted..
T-T *EVEN BIGGER TEARS* he DOESN'T work at b&n.. at ALL!
*is very sad*
but i'm glad i saw him though. ^-^
AND i saw Niel too.
XD
*GLOMPS DAT PERVY ONE*
good times!
i'll miss him. he's done with school.. well.. MY school. T-T
but he had us in stitches.. cuz i was askin what year *chinese zodiac* my co-workers were born in
guess what this fool starts sayin MAD LOUDLY

I'M THE YEAR OF THE COCK!

^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
yeah.. that's niel for ya.
i'mma miss his silly ass though.

anyhow. i relized something.. I'm an afterthought... if that much.
:/
ok ok.. not NOW realized it,.. but still..
i KNOW i won't get what i've been waiting for for.. erm. say.. FOUR MONTHS
*deep scowl*
and if i remind you.. and i KNOW you're busy... i'll feel bad..
but i won't say forget it.. *lest you HAVE forgotten
but i don't see it even being able to fit in now anyhow..
*is not making ANY sense*
though i'm NOT saying scrub the whole thing IF you got around to it.
ah well.

XD I got my pics back that i sent to develop BEFORE i went to Trinidad!
I GOT THE ASIAN CLUB NEW YEAR'S PICS BACK TOO!
:D
i gotta scan them and post it on their data base. XD
and I GOT PICS OF JUSTIN, JILLIAN AND RYAN TOO!
XD
so i can't WAIT till i get my Trinidad pics back

that aside.. class starts tomorrow night..
i have NO CLUE as to how i will be getting home.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

shit!

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[Tuesday, July 15, 2003|01:06 a.m.][Guileless Desire]connan o'brian..



a few out of a couple..
i'm sleepy..
SEE!! SLEEPY!
the rest on the fan page.. *points to the small pic of self on page*
clickity click


my sites are set on this...

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[Monday, July 14, 2003|05:55 p.m.][Guileless Desire]the news

XD *INSERT CHESHIRE CAT GRIN X A KAJILLION*
guess what?


I GOT MY FEDORA!

tho i think it got a bit crushed so...
:/ i dunno how it'll look on me just yet.

that aside...
ano..you could order that saga of peach girl lez.
and we had mars 1-12 in store..
tho my co-worker bought vol 1 today.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
but there is a way to get it.

and OMG! hen just told me SDK *Samurai Deeper Kyo* is already released here!
*GAPES*?
SHIT they are getting fast.
I wonder what Yukimura's voice sounds like?


OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I THINK PJ WORKS AT MY STORE!
fuu fuu fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!*wiggle giggle*
cuz i THINK his name is p...... but i'm not 100%..
so i gotta wait and see when i go in tomorrow.
POXATION! >:/
GARRRRRRRRRRRRR! i wanna see Pirates of the Caribbean
already! T-T
but i'm working all this week as is.. maybe next week.

and SPIDAH! O_o they LOAN manga.. how... odd... ?_?
thankies pura da and spidah na *huggles you both*
i MAY be able to come up and visit.. since my dad dropped up joel and ethon by my aunt..
so yeah.. i MAY be comming to canada.. so we can hang if i do!
XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

*BOPS PURA ON DA HEAD*
YOU! BLOG!

[random thing of the day]
KAZE! *GLOMPS HIM*
i never did finish FFU btw.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

Sara *aka sa-chan8 is 19 today *huggles her

Yomi from Nightmare is 22 today! *throws confetti*
HE'S ADORABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! *glompmolests him*
and so liddo too.
EEEEEEEEE!

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[Monday, July 14, 2003|01:39 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Lily for you - Due'le Quartz

ROFL!
Lez.. darling.. our manga selection DOES NOT suck like wall street stock hun.
our product stands have yet to come in.
but mars and the rest are IN STORE!
you gotta ask.. some one will get it for ya..
*cough cough hint hint hint*
DISCOUNT anyone?
*titters*
anyhow.. it's in the teen series section
BIIIIIIIDAH! ;P

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[Monday, July 14, 2003|09:10 a.m.][Guileless Desire]LoveRain Type 7 - Rice

"i want to go home.. to Go'ds home" she said
that's fucked up kinda..
my mom told me my aunt said that
her illness has caused her to say odd tings..
but i really do think she may be dying once she said something like that.
my dad came home with my bro last night.
my mom proptly began discussing the stiuation with him
it turned into and arguementdue to my dad being stubborn
i was in my room laying in bed.. doing nothing.
so when i decided to come out.. my dad is like you've been gone for almost 3 weeks and you don't greet me properly?
and i'm like.. yeah pretty much.
and i go back into my room
this morning i claimed my snippyness was due to my cramps. :p
but i DIDN'T miss him... AT ALL!
he was so crappy to me before i left.. and i feel nothing now.
blah. i got work at 10:30 today...=_= i don't wanna go. T-T
BUT they have a check waiting for me.. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;
and i gotta get my schedule fixed cuz my photography class starts on Wednsday
^_^ i was so i dunno.. in an odd mood.. i danced in my room to my J-rock collection #4 cd i made
helped my leg and my cramps too..
ANYHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! i can't wait till i get back to school!
i gotta scan that pic for those ppl
and make some photo enlargements too
SHIT!
I GOTTA GET MY FILM FORMT HE DEVELOPERS TODAY! T-T
And Emanuel.
GOOD LUCK!
I hope that kid replies to the e-mail i sent him.. AND listens to your tracks.
:/ i guess i'd better get ready for work right? *sulks*

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[Sunday, July 13, 2003|05:00 p.m.][Guileless Desire]nothing...

my mom just called from NYC
i didn't go to church today..?
i was too tired.. and good ting.. cuz i'm PLAGUED right now. ¬_¬

but the reason why she calle dme was to tell me she thinks my Auntie Marva may be dying..
the same one who had that stroke a few months back
she's been in and oput of the hospital frequently so yeah...
i was kinda in disbelief when my mom told me that
but then again she TOO is a nurse.. just like my aunt
so she WOULD know
but my aun't isn't saying WHAT she has.. so we're all like ?_?
so my mom told me we may be having a family prayer meeting this week to pray for my aunt
*deep deep sigh*
and ALL of her uncles and aunts in trinidad wanted to see her SOOOOOOOOOOO BADY!
they raised her you see..
but my aunt refused to go...


on to lighter news though...
my dad is an idiot.
i do know i say this alot.. but this is the creme de le creme
as i figured.. because he's so STUPID, he drove to Louisiana to pick-up Daniel, Joel and Ethon.
THOUGH they had round trip tickets..*smakcs forhead*
But wait there is more!
he decided to DRIVE to CANADA with the 3 of them.
WHY?
Ethon is a lil baby still.. if he gets sick *i.e. if he gets SARS somehow* my dad will be in shit street.
WHY IS HE SO DUMB?

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[Saturday, July 12, 2003|09:26 p.m.][Guileless Desire]MEGA MIX Tricky - Beasty Boys (Womb Club / Tokyo / Japan April 2003)

DAMN! THIS MIX IS HOT!
I feel like i'm in a club or lounge or some shit.
XD
i LOVE Dirty.com!!
but it seems like Colette sponsored teh djs tehtre tho.
*heavy heavy sigh*
so it seems my clubbing this summer shall be nill..
damned sars. ¬_ャ
this is all due to my REFUSAL to pay like 50 bucks for a fake id when i'll #1 NOT DRINK.. and #2 be 21 next year anyhow.
bah!
i'm in a better mood now that i've eaten..
funny though.. it was dark at about 6pmish in trinidad........
OH YEAH! it's there "winter" there...
or rather.. their rainy season.. @_@
that whole curve of the axis thing so we have different seasons and what not.
ARGH! i still have yet to get my cuff.. T-T
now i gotta fork out the dough to get a pinstripe suit con fedora too.. T-T
why you may ask?
BECAUSE IT LOOKS HOT!
I SO could have had one made in trinidad too tho..
but i'd have to buy fabric and have it sewn.. but what do I know about buying fabric.
T-T
also.. i think i'll e-mail Manuel about the studio thing that guy gave me a few months back.
been stewin on that for a bit actually.:/
but what the hell the worst he can say is thanks but no thanks... in a horribly mean manner. T-T

what else.. ..
added some cliques..
started a new splashpage graphic.. cuz i HATED the old one.. hence i never gave out the index page url.. -_-#
i STILL need to put those pic links into the gallery too..
gyah i'm so behind.
that aside.. how are all'ya summer vaycays going?
i'm swamped with so much i can only read a few.. as in.. i skim to see what i missed.. like if anyone is missing a limb or pregnant or something.
ROFL!
tho damn.. that boy got his nose broken.. hopes it heals ok..
cuz.. if it don't...
he would be fugly for the rest of his life if it don't heal straight
ok ok.. not fugly.. but something will be off about how he looks tho..
ugh.. what daY IS THE 16TH ANYHOW?
i don't really feel like having class. >_<
and on another random note..

i need to get a mike.. cuz typing sux sometimes.
like a fic author i know says.. i'll bestow upon you a voice monkey
BE AMUSED!
i was -><- close to buying one in Trinidad too ya know..
and that's it really...
i'm gonna see if i can work my mom over so we can get dish or direct tv/
i miss cable so much!
T-T

OMG! I ALMOST FORGOT..!!
Yugioh in SPANISH is fuckin HILLARIOUS!!!!!/

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[Saturday, July 12, 2003|03:43 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Super Drive - Kinya Kotani

oh and yeah.. do you ever feel like just going "KISS MAH FUCKIN ASS" at the top of your lungs sometimes?
*holds head* i mean..yeah.. granted i'm a young woman.. but shit they were (to coin a phrase..) stealin my face in trinidad!
young, old.. REALLY REALLY OLD!
it was uncomfortable...
and not to mention going to the beach.
and it seems Hen is out of an Otacon roomie.
too bad.
i wasn't going anyhow..
i CAN'T.. in that.. to pay that much money to go... i'd be better off staying the whole time..
which i can't do..
my parents are paramoid.
also.. i see myself falling back into my rut since i got back home.
not good..¬_¬#
and poor viv.. her mom keeps calling her phone..
i need to call viv this week too.
btw.. thank all of you for your good wishes on me and my gran.
she's WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY better than when we first arrived

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[Saturday, July 12, 2003|03:36 p.m.][Guileless Desire]Shagare Boogie - Baroque

*is annoyed.
24 hours haven't even passed and i'm annoyed
that is FUCKIN CRAZY!
i have a headache
ry wants to hang but i'm tired and irratable..
yet i think i'll be ok tomorrow though.
i'm way behind on reading mad sutff.. T-T
massive e-mails are being deleted too
i really wanna sleep but i'll be working next week.. ALL week.. though my classes start on the 16th. ^^V
OI! LEZ! FOR THE LOVE OF...DO NOT BUY FURUBA!
I BURNED IT ALREADY..
ALL OF IT..
or buy it after i give you the cds or something....
or let me know if you still want them
and spidah *huggles ya* you are ADORABOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
aite. goin to eat and i dunno what else...
i need to go get my checks tho.

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